Leng Yein's Blog

My everything ... part 22

I had received alot of appreciation messages regarding my blogs and captions . I would like to take this opportunity to thank all these beautiful people for taking their precious time writing to me typing every single letter sincerely especially the girls who attached their message with their numbers at the bottom and the girls who looked up on me as their role model n inspiration . To be frank im shocked for messages like this showering me from girls coz most of the time girls wont write to girls saying nice things . Girls , thanks for everything . Without u girls , my world wouldn't be as beautiful and i mean it ...

Every captions of mine has their own meaning and story behind ... It has been sometime every since i wrote my last blog coz i had been writing my diary everyday instead . I'll never write something for fun and if i were to choose to do it i rather not writing anything at all ... so when i write , i REALLY write ...  i'll sit down for hours in my home sweet home of mine and jot every letter down , words by words ... And very word that i say means alot to me ... and hope that my story will help you people in your life ... coz it does to mine ...

( Im sorry , i had to remove all of these for some personal reasons )

Loving you forever ... Leng Yein

I specially dedicate this to you ... part 20

To my dearest guardian angel … I dedicate this very special blog of mine just for you … though u might not be able to read it … I understand that u had to love n protect more than just me alone in the world and that you are always so busy and on the go to bring happiness into others life , but I will always take my time no matter how busy I am to write down things that I would like you to know and thank you through jotting down every single magical moments tat I had and writing it in the very special room of mine … truly from my heart … my blog that I specially dedicated to you …

Dear angel , I’d never felt so happy before for a long long time … Eversince I call it the new chapter of my life , everything seemed to be so wonderful for me . I felt so, so lucky coz everything I ever wanted seemed to popped out just like that for me . I felt like im the luckiest girl in the whole world now … Things tat I’d never dreamt of achieving , everything that I’d never dreamt of having , the miracle and the life that im under going now , incidents that I never thought of happening , words that I never dreamt of hearing , a life that I never even dare to dream of … I now have the whole world in my hand … because of you … your existence … your presence … your love for me …

My dear angel , although u r far away from me n I cant possibly see u in real at times , I always feel ur presence in my heart . Deep down inside me there’s a voice telling me ‘ Babygirl , don’t be afraid … No matter what happens , u always have me here to guide n protect you … ‘

After what had happen to me which made me realized that people often love a person judging by their look , i wanna let u know hereby that im very glad that I know , and strongly assured that no matter how I might look or turn into one day in future , you judge me by heart above all deceiving temptations … and love me for who I am and not what others see by shallow … and by this , ANGEL , are a given name to you by all good …

I often tell myself that I’ll always try my best to help n do good even when I know clearly tat these people are not good people or they are using me or taking advantages of me . Coz I believe that by doing that , the greatest of all above will know n that I’ll get the return one day … and I believe after 21 years of suffering n strangling for a slight breath of life , I finally get my call … straight from the heaven above … from you … my guardian angel .... ^l^

The feeling of your presence had changed my life completely . No matter what I do now , I try my best n even if I fail , I know deep down inside that I need not to feel a slight of sadness coz im not a failure for you  … and coz u made me a winner above all …

Im very thankful that I have your precious time protecting n guarding me in stead of all the beautiful people around … That I have your trust and blessing no matter where I go or what I do … That im so lucky to have had all the things in the world that I ever wanted and made me the happiest person on earth … I’ll never ask for more and i couldn’t possibly ask for more now , when I’d already have the whole world with me …

Dear angel of mine , I don’t know how long would this beautiful charm lasts … But I want you to know tat for every magical moments that u’ve created for me , for every single miracle that u’ve made to happen , for all the reasons that I’d smiled for , for everything , every dream , every hope , every memorable moments n happiness I’d much to cherish that u’ve given me … im hereby very honoured n touched that u’ve actually noticed me in the very corner of the world , and spent time guiding me throughout every heaps n bumps tat I had , shower me with all your love and care , creating so many magical moments in my life , and blessing me throughout the path of my existing life …

Thanks for appearing in my life my dearest guardian angel of mine … fixing everything up so perfectly for me , making my life so wonderful … making me so , so happy … giving me no reason to cry for now as I know that no matter what happen , you’re always there somewhere in the other corner of the world , praying for me to be alright …

And by that , I promise you that no matter what happen one day , even when the day comes when u had to leave me forever and carry on your duty of protecting the others , i’ll still smile to you at that very last moment … U’ll never see me sad , my darling angel … coz I know tat deep inside you , the very last thing tat u’d ever wanted to see … is that im sad n unhappy … I know tat all you ever wanted is to see me smiling happily all the time …

I will still smile when you’re gone my dear … coz everytime I smile … I think of you … coz for once sometime ago , you are the only reason I’ll smile for … and as time goes by , I’ll always remember you … coz everytime I smile … my smile reminds me of you … deeply …

Hundreds of hugs and kisses from me a day my angel …

My heart & soul , yours completely ……. Leng Yein                                 

                                                                                                     ( 14/07/06  ….. 8.00 pm )

My life in June ... Part 19

It has been almost a month now staying abroad in China , away from my new ‘home sweet home’ , away from the hectic schedule of mine , away from all the beautiful people I know , away from my usual on going life , away from my beloved cowcow ... Hmm … :-* :-* :-*

This whole 3 weeks plus is so tiring , so busy , so humid , so lack of sleep , so always on the go , and most saddening is tat so missing home n cowcow … Travelled to Shang Hai , Hang Zhou ,  Jia Xin , He Nan , Chong Qing , Xin Chun and again to BeiJing . Everyone has been asking me , hey , how’s your life now babe ? Simple ! Happy , watching day by day passed by so quickly , been fully occupied by tight schedules as usual , high energy meter all the time , and try to keep myself smiling everyday … My life, Hah ! Its always full of challenges and chances . But im full of questions n hesitations . Each step I take and each decision tat I made sometimes holds me back a lot n scares me quite abit . Why ? Because I’ll never know the decision I made will effect how powerful to me in the future … But yet , sometimes things tat have to be done , have to be done … This , is what we call – Life …

I’ve never been so active before in pageants . This month , I’ve added 4 titles into my collection . Good ? Haha ~ if u say so then let it be … I’ve learnt alot through these pageants … Trust me , really really a lot …

Im quite lost about my current life now . Yes , of course I know what im doing n believe me , I have a very clear picture of it but then , im very scare sometimes . Why ? I don’t know how to tell you but I believe tat if u put urself in my position you’ll have the same feeling too ... No , of course not because of my new titles n what u guys say ‘ more famous ‘ . Having titles doesn’t mean that im any different from all the girls around . Just that every individuals have different interest n way of enjoying things … My reason is very personal n sensitive …

Oh dear ~! Time flies … I’ve already been living alone for a month plus already . Happen to think back all the happy n sad moments I had , I must say now that im walking towards a different path of way , a different stage of my life , a different situation , and different people … but I think it’s a good . I’d learn to adapt new things , decide n do things in a different way … the ending ? I’ll never know … and I just don’t want to think about that anymore … why ? Coz truth hurts … And when im hurt , I’ll be really really hurt … really really … and I really mean it . But yet again , im already very n numb n immune to these kind of situation so it doesn’t matter to me anymore … really ? I don’t know … and I don’t wan to even think about it … I just don’t wish to know …

Well , hope that everything will come to an end soon and I’ll finally get the answer to my prayer … May god bless you all here … and may all the little angels above look after all of you everytime you needed them to … Muah ~

Sincerely …… Leng Yein

My Miracle ... Part 18

I had finally made my decision to shift down to KL and live alone , letting down everything that I had behind me , every sad moments that I’d been through , and ready to step into another level of … life … my life …

After all these days of searching , failing and falling apart … yet all I have is me to pick myself up again , and again , and again … I’ve been wondering and wanting to know the question that I had always been asking myself , which I never did had an answer to it , but now , everything will be different … Im very glad that i had found the answer , at last … I had found my true life , my long lost moments that I had , however , lost some how since so very long long time ago …

All my life , im battling with no one alongside me but myself … Daddy , thanks for leaving me so soon coz I learnt my life earlier than others . Mummy , thanks for having a new boyfriend coz im happy when I see u smiling . I promise that I’ll be home whenever my schedule is loose … and I will be home as much as I could … Don’t worry , ur lil girl will take care of ur lil princess here too … I’ll fetch her back whenever she has a break ~ We love u mummy ~! And SeanSean , study hard … I will always be there for you my dear , I promise … And I wont let anyone hurt u like what they did to me … That’s it , my whole life , my story … ends here …ends here in this lil space of mine , along with my fallen pieces …

This new place will be my new home , my new story … I will pray very hard for a life , which is totally different from what I’d been through before … no , not again …

Im playing my 3 favourites , Richard Clayderman’s - A Comme Amour , Couleur Tenoresse , and Couer Fragile while im writing this very special blog of mine right now , these pieces seemed to know me so well that they know how my feelings are running right now ...

My diary , my story , my life … will be jotted down in this frame , this tiny lil private room of mine … Im really glad that u took your time to read n study my blog , and study me … By the end of the day , this , is nothing much more … but me …...

Looking back on what had happen and what’s happening right now , I even wonder as if one day im lost in my life , would this be the place where I can sit down , sipping my champagne , reading every single letters that I’d typed , every single chapter of story that I’d wrote … looking back on my life , keeping track of myself in the past , the present , and coupe myself throughout everything and touch the future … and the more I write , the more I urge to keep on writing …

Sitting down alone in this empty room , its so quiet and peaceful here … even the air cond’s are clearly heard . Everything seemed to be out of my visibility , its as though everything doesn’t really matters anymore … With the piano pieces notes dancing around me , my mind is focused to just one single person right now … A very very special person in my life … a gift … a miracle … a myth that I’d once lost hope on … and a story , a story that im gonna learn , grow up , hold on , take up the risk , and pay my price for it …

‘ If u love a person , u should let them go and see them happy ‘ and ‘ Happiness comes once , so grab it before its gone ‘ … It’s 2 strong statement which is totally different . Im tutoring myself every now and then … Kept reminding myself that things might not be the same again the next second , so that I wont forget to cherish the very second that I still have before I lost my chance to … That I will always look at things at the brighter side like what I had always been telling myself of that after the rain , the rainbow eventually appears again … and that the day would be better .But why if there’s no more sunshine after the rain ? Or that u have a piano lesson and cant go out side to see the rainbow ? I psycho myself not to think at all , and stay mind clear n mind strong all the time . I know that this way wont help , but at least , it’ll make things better … and that he is happy , and I’ll be alright … For once again in my life , im happy … Every now and then , I kept telling myself that no matter what happens , expect the unexpected and expect the worst , so that im prepared for it … and I guessed that everything would at least be better this way so that even when time comes , Im ready to leave again … and by then , maybe I’ll force myself to see the outcome of ‘ Every cloud has a silver lining ‘ … But why if there’s no cloud in the sky … its ok , coz I still have myself … I has always been me alone , why doesn’t it make any difference there ? Now this , is life …

Befriend your tears … by then , only u’ll have no fear for love … God gave me a hope , in return , I will cherish this gift and keep it with me as long as I have a chance to … until the day that it’s gone , I will keep this very special gift in my heart , forever … No one knows what’ll happen in the end of the day … But at least for now , we are more than just happy … and for this , I had already have the whole world …

Love Always ……. Leng Yein

Love for me is ... part 17

It's been awhile since i ever wanted or even just felt like having someone other than girls by my side ... I really enjoy having my girls around me though , no offense but i never felt any happier than this when im with my girls ... until ......

It's not easy for me to fall in love , but its tougher for me to force myself not to love ...

I always hope that i could just , just find a guy whom i dont feel irritated when he's near me , feeling so secured when he's around , felt so warm when he hug me ... there's so many around me but all of them are not what im looking for , or should i say , i fall for ... its not about who they are , what they have , or how much they gave out ... the problem is , am i interested ? My answer was constant back then that i just wanna have all my time with Karena ... until something happened ...

Days back , when i really needed some pure care , and all ppl around me just wanna offer me some fake care n wish for a what my cowcow called FF = Free Fuck . Damn ~! Really made me changed my mind of having a 2nd bf man ~! So sick of all the fakers n posers out there ... Love ? Love cant buy u food man ~ Love ? I can get as much from my girls ~ n still , doesnt need to be hurt , coz girls cant hurt me like u guys do ... Me ? I gave up on searching coz i dont wanna be attached coz by being that meaning i will get unnecessary phone calls babbling me 24-7 checkin on me on where am i who am i with what am i up to why am i not sleepin yet this n that n bla bla bla so tell me again , why do i need a boyfren ? Traveling here n there , forcing myself so badly , filling up my time with works n piles of projects , all because i just duwanna settle down quietly n felt so empty n lonely .. tats all ...

God , WE , both of us , know that we love each other as much , or even when u have no time to love me , im gonna love myself as much too . But life is always like this i guess huh ? It's not that u dont grab your chance , but u dont even have a chance to ...

Im sad , very very sad lately ... forcing myself to learn tat to love someone is to let them go and seeing them being happy ... i never tot that this fake fairy tales talk is happening , coz all these while i tot it just happened in drama ... The one you love , might not be the one you can love ... not because he dont love you , but because of certain facts and we cant possibly be together ... letting go , its easy to say , but my heart aches every now n then ... and this , i felt like shit ~! My single life is so so wonderful , used to be so fun with my girls , doing crazy things together ... until recently , im confused ... Im still as happy , but i felt empty inside ...

Its been a year after my break up ... i had however , eventually , little by little , started to heal ... its scary to have this feeling ... coz i'd always pull back on that totally . But now as no one is forcing me , im nearer to this trap ...

i need you ... but i cant ... im really really sad ... so i guess i'll just work harder n stop myself from being an idiot ... im really down ... very very down ... and my body is starting to feel weak , guess i worked myself too hard n forcing myself too far though ...

Once , long long time ago , even myself had already forgotten when was the last time , but now , for the second time in my life ... im really sorry to say that ... I Love You ...

Unforgettable moments ... leng yein

We tried our best to be as simple , but deep inside we know tat its impossible ... part 16

Dear friends , forgive me for muting myself out for such a long long time . Was extremely busy days back n in days coming so cant expect much from me though ~

Dush ~! <--- special sound effect for a special start up ~ Finger also kaku oledi ~ Well well well ... got loads of messages regarding my blog , sorry ah ... i'd already try my best to keep on writing oledi but at times im really not free de lah ... but im very touched tat u guys really follow n keep track on me , thanks thanks ~ *baby felt so touched*

Money isn't everything , but without money , u'll lose almost everything ... agree ? I'll analysed on that , wait lah ... aiyoH ~ If that watsoever metre is 10 , and u're at like erm ... 1-3 , having alotsa money is everything u'll ever wanted . But when u're at the level of 6-9 , u'd have the power to get or have everything tat u wish for , even 10 girlfrens i suppose ... in ur dream ? No shit man , u can have , coz with the money u had , the 10 girls will be smart enough to share each other n not fight herself outta ur house u idiot . So guys , get ur ass settle down n work hard . Girls , you should do the same too , coz if one day ur guy leaves u , what cha gonna do ? Buy a Vogue magazine sit by the roadside n cover ur face with the page where they have the LV advertisement so tat u can have a sweeter dream n settle down by the longkang ah ? Have a life , its yours n no one can help u on that but urself .

Switch place , if u r very pretty or rich or sexy or slutty n all the guys around u SMACK!!! can easily fall in love with u or should i say u can make any guy u like to fall for u easily n crazily , yes , a supergirl u are ... haha ~u think with the look u have u can have everything ah ? You thought u have everything but wait until a time when everyone just wanna fuck u n leave , are you happy ? Or after u officially get FUCKED , they'll treat u differently . How would u feel ? You were dreaming about having a guy neglective of whether he's poor or ugly or stupid who'll love u for who you are , girl ~ STOP DREAMING , coz its not gonna happen . U know why , let me ask u a question , WHO ARE YOU ? think again , WHO ARE YOU ? then , the next one , are they blind ? You still dont get it dont you ? If u r not pretty , will guys get attracted to u ? And if u expect guys nowadays to love u as much even after they marry u but u urself doesnt look that good anymore do u think its possible for them to do that ? Will they even dare to bring u out to show their frens tat they have a T-rex at home ? I know that ppl say YOU CANT LOOK GOOD FOREVER , n im gonna tell them this ' YOUR MUM TAUGHT U TAT ? ' Who said WE GIRLS cant look good forever ? We can ~ We just need to keep ourselves in track , look good at our age ... u cant expect ur granma wearing ur gold bikini holding hands with ur granpa can u ? No ~! At least u dont wear the same clothes for a week , that sounds good ... Hmm ... So pretty girls , rich girls , smart girls , cocky girls , girls , all girls , just bare in mind that this is the fact that no matter who come near u trying to be your fren , they're up to something . It either something good or bad , frenship only ? Na , i dont think so ... maybe first frenship , but after that , hoping for more i should say ... so dont be stupid , everyone's up to something , remember that . Innocent girls are stupid , not so called good girls anymore , the word doesnt exist already . If u're innocent , try to act not ~! Coz ppl will just take advantage of u , not help u u silly girl ~! Help to lay u on the bed maybe .. hmm ... So , this blog advise u girls to becareful of all the people around u , open ur eyes big big big before u do something which maybe can or will affect ur future life alot ... i had my lesson once but i learn from it . So please dont make yours , coz its not easy to make it tru ... and YOU , know what i mean by that ...

Guys turn ~! You're rich , you're a celebrity , you're sizzling hot , you're successful , you're everything ? Yes , of course ~! You're everything a girl wants in a future husband ?? ~ Haha ~ , so sweet hor ? I tell u what , with all those potential u have $$ , u do however fit perfectly into their potetial financial plan u dumb dumb ~! Girls around u love u for who u are ? Haha ~ Is ur education level until standard 6 ? Stop day dreaming guys , if u're TAT high up , becareful of who u choose . Always cherish the one who was staying by n on ur side when u're nothing days back . They , are the true ones whom u can hardly find around u now , wat , in loft n cynna n luna bar ? Haha ~! Come on , i know u have money n u can have loads of girls with loads of happiness n who cares to settle down with one , i mean by all means its ok to have loads of girls with u at the same time but think again , if something really awful happened to you , how many outta the crowd would stay by ur side ? My answer , all ~! Coz they want u to get their name into ur will after u die u dumb dumb ~! Its easy for a girl to grab a rich guy , and its very easy for a rich guy to grab any girl he sees , but then ... is that what u really want ?

The fact is , there's always a reason behind one choosing another and not the other options they have ... and with intentions ... we cant change the fact but then , we can choose to have the least level of bad intention ppl to stay ...

We're too young to settle down , yes its true ... so play hard , rock hard , bang hard , whatever hard ... by the time u wish to settle down ... just do it n forget about the pass ... then , move on with your dream ... choose wisely n never regret ... coz every individuals are different in a way , dont expect others to adapt themselves into ur life , coz things will be nasty that way ... just go with the flow ... and like what i always say ... as long as you are happy , always ....

kisses from .... leng yein

PeopLe tHat i Love & hAte mOst tHesE 4 monthS ... part 15

Guys  , nice guys , i damn kesian u guys lah ...... Why when i tot i met nice simple guy FRIEND then you pulak turn into HAM SUP DEVIL de ? Damn u lah , u tot u rich = u can get any girls u want meh . Fuck off lah .... You guys drag nice guy's reputation down lah , go die lah ~ Girls , thanks for everything ... u girls are forever so sweet to me .... Muacks ~

Now , every Alphabet i wrote below stands for different true person that i met these 4 months . I wanna thank some really nice people , and some fucking idiotic ones .

Ms.SS , my dearest lil sister & Ms.Karena / Waiwai  ... wah ~! if i wanna write it'll take forever ... so i'll cut it short , u r indescribable ... coz u 2 r the best of ALL ... ALL !~!~ This 2 very very very very special girl , dont need to elaborate , they're the most understanding n greatest gift from god that i ever had ... thanks for watching over my shop for me , thanks for making everything so right , thanks for having faith in me , thanks for trusting me , thanks for supporting me , thanks for loving me for who i am , thanks for teaching me things that i never know , thanks for being there for me ALL THE TIME whenever wherever i need u girls , thanks for accompanying me 24-7 , thanks for staying so true to me , thanks for being such 2 beautiful soul and being the most fascinating human on earth , forever n ever n i mean it .... thanks for being so sincere to me , thanks for bringing me up when im down , thanks for the laughter & joy that u girls had brought me all the time , thanks for the moments , the special moments that we 3 had shared whenever we are together , we are unseparable ... with you girls around , everything seemed to be nothing and worth nothing to me anymore ... i love you girls the most ~ More than my own life , and this is sincere;y spoken from my heart ... you girls are the most precious thing i have in my life .... i love you ..... thanks thanks n thanks for everything ...

Ms.A from California Fitness , nice meeting u ... really happy tat i have a cute fren like u from frenster ... would like to go mum mum with u again ...

Ms.B from Kuantan , hey bitch , stop stealing things form my shop ok ? Im not stupid lah , come on . I've been running my business for about 4 years now u tot i dunno what u did behind me ah ? 4 bf come my shop n quarrel , hah ~ U r really a joker man ~ Bitch ~ @!#%$@#Q

Ms.C , Thanks for calling me up all the time checking on me .... really appreciate that ~

Ms.M from Kuantan , Bitch , stop teaching my girls how to steal n take things outta my shop . They are with me and we will stick as one lah . I have my own way of handling my girls , u cant psycho them one . Try harder next time ok ~ Challenge me ? Come on ~ Why dont u come and see me so that i can pass my whole shop to you , good idea ? Go fuck yourself ~

Ms.WL mui from KL , thanks for being so true to jiejie all the time . Very hard to find girls as innocent as u in KL nowadays , jiejie wish ur boyboy n u can find true happiness forever ... jie is not as lucky as u to have found such sweet first love oh , but jie know u will cherish de ... mui mui will stay pretty forever in jiejie's heart oh ~

Mr.A from Kuantan but now studying in KL flying to Uk later , thanks for everything u'd done for me . Thanks for the watch , i love it alot . Going around for days looking for the Limited Nike i want , the LV i want , although ended up buying me the B watch , but i tell u what , im really touched for the whole process of you rushing from places to places just to get me the best present , its priceless ... Now left u hanging pok kai oledi , i felt really bad loh ... but no matter what , ur gf is very lucky to have you ~! Muacks , buddy , u r the best ~! Hey , stop nagging about that PINK PLAYBOY lah , i dont understand why until today u still so geram loh *laugh* . I also got smile when i saw the watch ward ... Haha ~! Ok lah , dont be angry lah , ok ? *wink , wink * ok lah , wei , *push A's shoulder* Brother , weih , ok yah ~ Haha ~

Mr.A , my lawyer buddy from the biggest lawyer firm in Msia or Asia , thanks for keeping in touch for about 1 2 years now ... thanks for the Crystal music box , the poster all the way from Washington and the sweet lil bird nest as my bday present now TAT was really a suprise ~ haHa , i tot y suddenly got a botle of it on my office desk de , hahaha ~ Very very thoughful ... thanks , like u say .... its very sweet

Mr.B from Kuantan (you know who wakakakakaka ) , Sei Lou ah , y now so kiddo de aiyoh ~ cut ur hair in HK until like that ah , tell the stylist im gonna kill him . Last time we went that salon cut damn nice at the lan kwai fong y this one like kiddo one ? Aiyoh .... miss u lah , ok ? Hehe ~ Still look nice in my heart if no girl want u ok ~ Waahahahhaha *laugh until pok kai*

Mr.B from Hartamas , thanks and sorry for the troubleSSS caused by me . Having you around me is one of the most relaxing one ... Dinner @ Planet Hollywood was very funny , u r very cute , haha ~ you are very caring and it really touches my heart , every single word u say coz i know u mean it ...

Mr.B from Tmn.Connaught , stop doing Lan ciao things lah . Damn angry when i know ONE OF THE SHIT u did . Go call kao my sister's admirer ask him dont woo my sister , go fuck urself lah . I never see anyone as ' MOU CHUN DOI ' as you one loh . We were never meant to be together coz of our same same egoistic characteristic loh . Admit it lah ... its not ur fault nor mine , its just tat we are both pest ... i loved you , but then we two were just not not not n never meant to be together lah ... u r a nice guy , but y u always do lan ciao things one ? Stop calling my frens n try to break my relationship with them lah , come on . you CAN NEVER succeed no matter how hard u try , my bond with my fren are VERY VERY strong de loh , sorry to tell u that no matter how smart n strong u r , ur move are always weak when u wanna break my life apart , coz like u say ... i shield myself up very very sternly ...

Mr.B lil boy from Johor , treat my sister good good ya if not i'll cut ur XXX hahahha ~! Thanks for that lil quacky duck from room interior design , i really love RID de stuff ... that duck will be place beside my bath tub ok ? Haha ~ And dont send so many chocolates to my sis ah , wait she fat fat no ppl want how ? We still wanna stay single for a longer time de ah , brother , support LONELY CLUB lah ~

Mr.B from Johor , thanks for having such much patience in me . Thanks for all the lil gifts you sent all the way from Johor . Forgive me for not replying u for such a long time , im really busy ... Thanks for caring bout me tru sms when im not happy , u r the most patient person tat i met for years now ....

Mr.C Stop behaving like a kid lah . You're a nice guy n i kinda like u but not love loh ... Come on , like to walk off when lil things happen , say things that u cant afford to do , come on lah . Malukan guys only . Dont try to tell my frens how much u love me n what u can do for me lah , ppl will just laugh at u only lah . How much someone love me n sayang me , we can see de . We never listen to wat others say , we see by ourselves ... get it ? So dont make the same mistake again if u wanna join my geng ok ? If u dont like it , fuck off ... n move on ... coz u got ur SPORT CAR u can go get other chicks if u want , you know what , WE DONT CARE ~

Mr.D from Penang , Thanks for being so supportive although we never met before ... you're very sweet ... thanks for promoting me to your frens , haha ~ But u r the best yo ~ Muacks ( wow , see i kiss u oh ) Tabik , to the Mr.D , the chairman of 3D , from your one and only DEVON ... and will always be the Devon you met ... Will fly to Pg very soon ok ? Promise *finger cross*

Mr.D from Uk , love to talk to you again . 14 hours of work a day , wow ~! We are the same species ... workaholic ~ n tats dangerous .... must take care oh ~ talk to u some other time ok ? Hey , havent send me the details i want lah , what lah you ~

Mr.E , all the way from Aus ... Thanks for having faith in me no matter what i do , your testimonials and messages meant alot , i know that u r very busy but yet u still take ur time writing to me ... im very honoured to be treated this way ... very touched ~! thanks yo ~

Mr.G from Sg , thanks for the notebook , thanks for bluetooth , the this n that , the dut dut dut dut dut wah too many to tell ah . You know what , u r the only guy whom i know that can really sacrafice so much for a girl ..... salute salute n salute ~ U r unbeatable ... forever the best n sincere guy i ever knew ... hope that u'll stick so truly being the G i knew eversince the day i knew you forever ... About ur dad's company , take it easy ok ? You know , we have the same problem with family business , so , look into the mirror now , the way u picture urself is how i see myself the very same second ... remember that always ok ? My bag will always be carrying an extra phone battery for you if u wanna talk , coz u r worth my time ... n i mean it . G , take things easy ok ? You're the man , cant give up de , n i know u wont ~ Life is tough n it sucks ... Prince L , your princess will always be there ...

Mr.G to the J from New York , sorry for muting myself out for abit , im really busy these days ... when im free i promise to reply ok ? Hope that u're doing fine in the states , sorry sorry n really sorry ~ Miss talking to you , it has been months or half a year but then , u r not forgotten , tats for sure .... thanks yo

Mr.I all the way from Taiwan ... thanks for the host when im in Taiwan , ur carSSSS are the best , ur drift left me speechless and ur house is so so big , wakakakaka ~ Thank your mummy n aunties for me too yah ~ And thanks for the new handphone ~ that is one of my bestest birthday gift ...

Mr.J from keielle , thanks for the 2 hours waiting with karena ... u're quiet but ok , very nice guy lah ~ Thanks for showing her the way from Hilton to KL , hahA ~

Mr.J , salute ~ All the way from Sg , u're very cute in a way ... Im glad that u love the way i express myself playing my piano pieces ... Hit me back whenever u r in town ok ? Keep in touch ~

Mr.K from bangkok , u hansome thing ~ of course i wont forget u silly ... Belle park , well , i will remember that incident *ops~!* hahaha ~ so cute

Mr.K from KL , stop wasting my time . Even a simple phrase also u wanna sms me so many times to ask me what i meant n shit . R u retarded ? No ? But for me u r .... damn @#$@#54 . I hate ppl who waste my time ... u r free , but im not ~

Mr.M from Subang , yo ~ My bro from Quantan , thumbs up ~ Oklah , I promise whenever im in Darussalam i'll call u ok ? hahaha ~ i know lah i know lah , u damn sien oni ... okok , i know what to do !~! Will call A & Z out , C was kicked out by us oledi .... haha ~ U know lah , we are very choosy de , bitches cant stay long ... and we dont accept junks , wahahhaha

Mr.N , who just got outta Inti Nilai College , thanks for the gifts , the chocolates , the medicines n the KAI CHING , haha ~ To tell u the truth , it really comes in hand loh ... just when i needed it . Really lucky that i have ur med box with me when i got food poisoning loh ... thank you thank you thank you ~ Add u 10 marks ~ Hahaha ... And thank again for when i had my fever days ago ur med comes in hand too .... Wow ~ r u god ?

Mr.T from KL , thanks for being such a wise MAN i should say , 26 years old huh ~ Yeah , for me ~! *think think* Wakakaka ... Hey , get ur Lexus back from penang lah , y lah put at e hotel , switch ur ferrari there loh ... Lexus nicer leh ... u still can have ur Merc mah ... i want Lexus ~!~!~!~! want want want ~ And dont forget my free ycyc ah , i help u save money liao ~ owe me one ~ And u have the girls already ... dont forget one for ur ehem ehem ... *think think think* You're the best ~ Salute salute salute ~ And very special to me ... and believe it or not , i mean it ~ Miss Miss & DusH dUsh DusH ~ Hahaha , u know what it sounds like , funny but , ok , as long as u like it ~

Mr.W from KL , thanks for accompanying Karena , u're very sweet for rushing down from Kepong ... haha ~

Mr.Z , thanks for everything n every effort that u'd made , the step u'd take ... You are special to me in a way ...

Aiks , travel outta Ktn dy ... busy continue later ~ ciao ~

Forgive me for behaving like this ... part 13

Boyfriend ? Single ? Married ? Hubby ? HaHaHa ~!No matter what , i will only trust and love myself for the time being ~!Why ? Simple , coz until now , no one had yet successfully had the chance to prove to me that they are worth me giving in ... maybe im too busy , or maybe not ?

People , i need some time ... For now , the most important thing to me is money . Money proves stronger than most of the reasons in my life . Shopping ? Haha ~! Whenever wherever im enjoying my shopping , i can even forget my own name ~ Dont believe me ? Call me the shopping Queen ... The happiness i gain from my shopping will be far more happy than me going out with a guy , trust me . Been there , done that , have it , love it ~ *muackx*

Havent met a nice guy who are equally as good as my mr.shopping ? Nop , u r wrong . There are good guys , and there are very very good guys too . But why ? Why ? Coz of this - i can get everything i want by myself , why should i get a boyfriend who can just provide me just some happiness equal to my shopping but then i will get nag + nag + nag + scolding + uncountable unneccessary problems + unfinished complains + controlled by them as though im a pet ? I want something , i go get myself something . I dont need to beg , i dont need to cry , i dont need to pray . As easy as A B C ... Wahahah ~! ( baby is so so mean , ngiak ngiak ngiak )

Why if that guy can provide me alot of shopping ? Oh yeah , sounds great . But then one thing , did that guy provide me shopping but then he must cut down on his own meal n daily life's expenses ? Yes ? Then no thanks . Why if he can get me something i need or fancy on the right time ? Oh yeah , i will accept it ONLY IF HE IS MY BOYFRIEND ~ My rule , i dont simply take in any gifts from people . Come on , it's ppl's hard earn money lah , u tot im a leech meh ? Suck blood de ah ? Yes ? Then i dont blame u , coz U R AN IDIOT n im just a Nut . We're two different species , we dont click . Well , u can block me now   *na*

Love a guy who loves u with all his heart even he's poor and one day when he's rich , he'll cherish u ? Haha ~ LIAR ~! I had it twice man , why doesnt it end up such beautiful picture then hUh ? Im a total Fucked Up girl in this Messed Up World , as simple as that . No matter who u r , no matter what u say , it doesnt matter anymore ... After my 2 break up and a lately incident , i learnt something new . No matter how much u cherish a person and gave out , NEVER expect to get back 50% of it . This , im gonna remember it for good . Dont tell me why am i so pessimistic , u know why ? Coz im stupid , im a total chemistry gone wrong case , like it or not , im a pess . That's it , and im gona enjoy living my life the way i want happily . Even alot of u came in and try to change my mind , Hello ? There's no more angel in this world lah , everyone love someone for a reason lah . No more cute cute cheap cheap love . Everything , everywhere , everytime , everyone here breathing now is COSTLY ~! Learn something new today by teacher Leng Yein . There's nothing as MY LOVE DONT COST A THING . U know why ? I duno whats ur case , but from what i did n what others did to me , loving a person COSTS alot . ( mumbling mumbling ) If i could just sum up the amount , maybe i can buy myself a lil sport car .

Today's Equation : Money + Time + Headache = Love

Every girl in this world are so so sweet n cuddly n cute EXCEPT one ....... ( any guess ? ) Oh yes , MR Robertzai overthere ? Ur guess ... Me ? OH ~ U r so smart man ~! Nah , this is ur prize , a very firm handshake from me + a *wink* ( Mr. Robertzai smile smile from ear to ear and walk back to his seat )

Yes , its very true that i shield myself up whenever there's a single sign of me falling in love . Special thanks to my dearest Mr.Past and of course , not forgetting my Mr.Fear . I should join the Fear Factor ? Yeah , i will lose straight away . Coz whenever i see any good quality guys , i think i'll give up even before the show starts . You can take all the money , thanks yah ~ Everything's going fine in my life now ... love life ? Haha ~ Of course its fine , u forgot that i love myself so much ? Im very self loving de leh ..... Haha ~

Ehem eHem ... ok lah . I'll stop being so sarcastic now . Considering to really dip myself into this game of Love again ? MY answer .......... ( drumss drumss ......... and cHianGggGGgg ) ........................................ eRr .... (people yelling 'Whoy , idiot , faster answer lah , u think u're acting now ah ?') .... sorry yah , ok ok ....... my answer is Yes . Currently dragging myself into some troubleSssSss liao ....... Falling into holes ? Nah , Falling in Love , again ? Haha ~! Thanks but No Thanks ......... Part of me are still however , what people call - under constructionZ *wink*

Well , i must say that there will be one day that i can find someone who knows how to read the signs of erm ..... Fragile , handle with care ? Beware of dangerous animal ? Fuck , u're dead this time ? Damn , pity u lah being the unluckiest guy in the whole world ? Shit , u're blind ? Haha ~! And lots more interesting sign written on my shit face

Whoever out there , may god bless the person who love me for who i am . Coz he's the pitiest person on earth to have known such an idiot like me ..... But i love you , i really do *smooch*

Well , i've just touched down from Bangkok this morning . Had my lunch then drove alone all the way back to Kuantan - TIRED ~!~!~!~! Wednesday flying to Hong Kong with my lil sister for our shopping trip again ~ I'll stop here now .... Gotta close my shop already , girls are looking at me typing , pai seh lah ~! Muacks , good day ~

Truly ............ Leng Yein

wHat i feLt aBout tHeM ... part 12

I stepped aside and look at myself , my life now , yes , im a very very lucky ~! And most importantly , im happy now ...

Life is so beautiful with love all around ... We always have so many choices to choose from ... Single or Counter Closed ? Normal or Gay or Lesbian ? Fifi or Bobo or LuLu ? RobertzAi or Marco or Paladin ? Friends or Lovers ? Gathering or 1-1 dinner ? Work or Dating ? Get rich or gone broke ? The toughest of all is , Love or Money ?

Sorry , louder please ? What ? My choice ? Oh , Ehem ...... neither one ~! I will ONLY fall for someone who are VERY special . My boyfriend is DEFINITELY the best of all ~! My choice is someone who are better than all of the guys around me , very understanding *wink*, someone who are very patient with me , extra sensitive to things happening around , extra time for me although i dont have that , very very extremely caring and loving , responsible , someone who wont blame me for his own fault , someone who dont hit and/or scold me , someone who can bring me around and show me the world , someone who can teach me things in life and on my business , someone who can made me a better person , someone who are smart and sexy , someone who has confident and mind strong , someone who knows what they want in life , someone who can step into my life but not changing it or messing it up , a guy who knows how to respect girls and himself too , a man who are capable of doing things that a man should do , a person who are honest and trustworthy , extra extra extra money for me to go shoppingSSssSSss ( Mr.god please grant me this wish ) , a guy who knows when to start talking and when to stop , someone who knows where to be at the right time and where not to be , a guy who know what to do when something happen , a guy who knows HOW TO BUY ME A PRESENT ~! , someone who will always stay true and protective someone who will NEVER forget important dates (yes , its a must must !!!) , a guy with a kind heart , and most importantly , a guy who will love me for who i am and wont force me to change into his fantasy (fuck off) , a guy who knows how to respect and love the important people in my life (my sister , my family , my bestest chi muiz ) , a guy who accept US for who we are and never complains , a perfectionist , a guy who will never waste my time , a guy who never nags me , a guy who will only bring laughter into my life and not bombing my peaceful city at heart like Mr.u know who , a guy who NEVER hate my friend (i warn you ya , there are less than 5 people in my life that u never wanna mess with , my sister , waiwai , ai lan , ai hwa and my mum ) if u ever dare make them sad or just unhappy , im out of your story man ~ Muah ~ Yeah , thats about it , easy right ? You just need erm ... let me count one , two , three , four ... dut dut dut ... those simple qualities above to be my qualified boyfriend . But the finalist will be judge by those five person above , thank you . Take note : U cant rasuah the judge , or u're out straight away ... Closing date of this competition are near , please send in your resume to join this competition of love .

Prizes : you get to know how nasty i can get , you can try to mess with my friends and see how WE react , you get to know how loud i can talk and how long my conversation will last once i start talking (ur house can flood) , you can realized alot of things that ur teacher never taught you in school , you will know why they always tell you ' Aih , Girls ... (shake head shake head ) ' , you can know how busy i am and what i do and where i go , u can get hold of my schedule of who i stick 24-7 with (answer : my sister and my bestest fren waiwai) , if u want a 1-1 meeting , erm ... maybe im free next life then . For now , i realized that the most important people in my life is still this two very special person , they are both two very unique girl , very understanding and caring and true ... to get to know them , add up :

my sister ........... lengsean_sean@hotmail.com

waiwai ........... waiwai_lim@hotmail.com

Money or Love ? I choose friendship ....... Coz until now , i cant get a guy who can give me everything that i wish for in my life , or at least , an average good in everything de guy . I dont simply take in crap shit , i only choose the best . If u r cursing me now 'u think u r so good ah , then i can tell u one thing - yes i dont think i am so good coz i know im good' U dont like me ? Then u know what ? FUCK OFF , i dont give a shit . I control my own life , i have all the right to search for one very special person who will stay with me FOREVER ... (although i had already found two)

Read this ~! It happens to alot of girls all around the world at this very second . Guys around me now ... what they can offer me , the sum up of all man kind , and this is what i analyzed : money but lack of attention , overload of attention but not practical (basically just talk crap lah for heaven sake) , love me but cant even pay for my hi-tea , wana be with me but his too busy himself , try to act as though he is rich lah bla bla bla but actually he's nothing but a cockhead , act as though he loves you but actually he's just flirting around , someone who says that he understand but actually he knows nothing about me , capable but not capable of handling me , protective but too harsh on my friends , scares my friends' nenek *wink* (yes , this is true ~! Oh Mr.hansome , dont be angry , they wont know its YOU ~!) , did something wrong and blame their fault on others , they say they're perfectionist and are picky but then never does things well and mess up alot of things ... Ehem , im not saying its YOU . If u terasa , then go ask yourself , what have u done and not done ?

And then , when i stop analyzing , i realized i cant stand guys with these GOOD qualities : Guys who never seemed to get things done the way they said so , someone who are a good actor ( Honey , this doesnt work on me , im better in 'acting' ok ? Wahahahah ) , guys who doesnt know what to say and where to be at the right time , guy who doesnt know how to make a quick decision , guy who has no balls (believe it or not , there's alot 'mou chun doi' guy out there) , guy who are OVER confident with themselves , guys who just know how to complain and not saying thank you , guys who doesnt know the true meaning of appreciate , guys who doesnt know what a MAN should do (help us carry things loh , pay money loh , shut up when girls are talking loh , dont start to complain and stop complaining ) , If u already know IM LIKE THIS de and u dont like it then DONT CALL ME ~! If u already know that im a busy person , then stop complaining i dont have time for you . If u think u r POOR , then fucking go get a job and get money loh . Its not that u have no hand and mouth ? At least u have a sexy butt then go sell butt lah ~! Im just telling the truth , maybe u might not like what i wrote in all my blogs , but then , think again ...... its the truth , face it ~!

Nowadays im very mean already , coz i finally found my soulmate ....... the greatest goddess of all kind .... wai wai and sean sean ~ Wahahaaha ~! They never complains , they never sleeps , they never stop talking , Shit ~ We're truly 3 crazy girlS ~

People who just started reading my blog , forgive me for being such an asshole . It's however , the ME and i will forever be like this de . That's why i always tell people , whoever ended up being the man in my life is the unluckiest person on earth man ~! I guessed all of u guys agree with it right ? Then , guys who still love me for who i am , think again ...... HahaHa ~ Give up , Yes , u should if u cant take this heart attack ride of your lifetime ~ Im not an angel , not a devil , coz im a crazy bitch ~ Nothing more than that ~ I love myself more than you loving me , thats for sure ... And i love my friend more than i love you , so bare in mind of that ~

This very fact will only change when i met someone who fits perfectly in my life , someone who are worth of me loving and settle down with , someone who are my everything and will be my everything , someone whom i love more than my own life , someone ...... who are however , my one and only lifetime partner .

You guys always think that u r so good , but then think again ... are you ? We girls always think that we love our bf so much and that we did everything we should do as a gf , but think again ...... did we ?

Everyone can be someone special for someone , everyone has a chance to be in each other's life , everyone has the possibility to end their life happily with someone they never thought they will love when they first met , anything could happen anytime , anywhere , everytime , everywhere ...... My advise , if u never try , how would you know ? If u never give YOURSELF a chance , how would others have a chance ? If u r so good , then why people around you doesnt love you for who you are ? Think ... sum up ... analyze ... and make up your mind ...

Every guy and every girl has their weak point . Everyone wears a mask , everyone are both an angel and a devil . If they met the right person at the right time , u will see the beautiful side of them . If they met the wrong person at the wrong time , u will see the ugly side of them . And me ? Im the extreme one , im basically formed by these add up equationZ :

Angel + Devil + Crazy Bitch + Talkative + Sexy tHenGg = me

And the result of it , people love me for who i am and hate me for that . Not good ? I dont care , although i does things my way , but i never hurt others this is FOR SURE ~! People who knows me know what i meant by that . Although im straight forward and very strict ALL THE TIME , but then i wont over do it . So i never had any problem dealing with people working with me . But if u never appreciate what i've done and pissed me of , u're 100% my history ~ It's not the money , its the regulation ~! You say thank you , not ok lah ~! You learn to cherish and appreciate , not complain and complain . If u think u r so good then go do everything yourself lah , go set up a project yourself , complete it yourself , live your life yourself , and at the end of your life ... u r left with nothing lesser than just yourself ......

Everyone has their different choice of partners and choices of what kind of life they want . And after you chose , DONT complain , coz no one force you on your last decision . That's why im always so harsh to myself , coz i want to hold on to what i believe . People ask me ' Are you not tired , stressed or 'san fu' ? Mu answer , No . Coz i know very well that in the end of the day , i will get what i want in life and that i will be happy . I will never ask for more now coz this is the only i doesnt had enough in my life ... MONEY ~! hahaha ~! What u tot i'll say , Love ah ? Dont be silly , if u dont have money , u wont be as happy as ppl who has it ... Im used to being showered with materialistic things , i wont settle for love without money . And when i say this , u should check back on my previous blog for what i'd wrote . I will not settle for money without love either . I want BOTH ~! And i will get it someday ... No matter what u say , i will get it in the end ... Dont believe me ? Then just give each other some time and you'll see how i ended up with ... shall we ?

Learn to cherish although u see ugly things in life . When others made a mistake , remember what they did and dont do it to others . If u think your boyfriend always screw things up , learn from him , thank him for teaching you a new lesson , study his mistake and dont do it ~! If something happen in a relationship , its nobody's fault . Neither one of you want it to end that way , just that things always does happen and noone can run from it . Learn from the mistakes that BOTH of you did , remind yourself and jot it down , dont repeat the same thing again and your next relationship will be a better one , hopefully the last one ......

I will only settledown when i know deep inside that , that very special guy has the quality to be the man of my life ... its easy yet not easy ... but noone knows what'll happen the next second so let just say leave this aside and let destiny leads us naturally ...... we have to hold strong to what we want and believe and the only thing that'll make me kept going on and holding on will however , only be love ... Everyone needs to be loved , and needs to know that they are loved ...

Cherish everyone around you ... Appreciates every little things that they do . Coz if u dont , they'll leave you very soon ...... Bare in mind : You might overlooked a diamond when u r collecting stones , never let your love ones slipped through your life because of your own naiveness and selfishness. Cherish and appreciates ... i repeat , learn to cherish and appreciate ......

No matter what you think about my blog , ITS MY BLOG . U can either hate me for it , or the other way round , love me for being true and straight forward . But then , i love you for reading it ~! Muah ~ My blog is like my diary , and this is the very true side of me .... So love me for who i am , and hate me for that ~

Love Always ............ Leng Yein

Strangers wHo cUrsed mE All tHe tiMe ... part 11

I had alot of comment from guys from what i wrote on my shout out on ----- I dont accept forward testi / messages . Im very busy , stop bugging me with all that . Send me a resume b4 u add , yes i just deleted more than 100 ppl 30 mins ago for not keeping in touch . If u think im very cocky then block me ~ Sorry & TQ Muah

Well , here we go again ... Just imagine that u are 24-7 very tied up with your jobs , but the reason why u wanna play friendster is that u find this place a quite fast and special place to meet and explore interesting people all around the world . But because of SOME IDIOTS WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO READ , they somehow love to cut & paste testimonials , messages and funny things and send it to you . First , u waste my time deleting your message . Second , u make me angry coz u r blind coz u cant read . Third , u r stupid and i dont like to befriend with stupid people .

What is stupid , define STUPID . Stupid is that a 7 year old kid know what i mean but YOU DONT ~ I tot friendster are for ppl above the age of what , 12 ? How old are you ? Like what , 2 ??? Hahaha ~!

Imagine that u're on a highway and 3 lanes are driving at 50km/hour . Does that annoys you ? No ? Then u should write a letter to the government saying that we dont need HIGH way , make some LOW way then ......

I HATE PEOPLE WHO WASTE MY TIME . They just know how to talk n talk n talk about people but they dunno how to settle or do the right things at the right time in the right place . You need to know when to talk and when not to , when to say something and when not to , where to be when people want u to be and not being at the place u shouldn't be . Get it ?

You wanna be my friend or not , its all up to you . You dont like me then BLOCK ME FOR HEAVEN SAKE , i dont care . You dont send me message saying im being cocky and bla bla bla coz i dont read , no matter how long u write to curse me what i do is just reading a lil then when i get ur ''message'', i'll straight away delete them without second thoughts . Not that im scared coz u guys are scolding me but whatever u write 1st . it doesnt interest me at all . 2nd , its very boring coz its meaningless . 3rd , u r wasting my time . 4th , i know if u write that , its all bcoz u guys did something funny or that u dont know me yet or that u r SPECIAL and i duwanna be your friend . Im not stupid ok ? I wont read all coz no matter how long u write it'll end up meaning - i dont like u , u BITCH ~! So ? i get it , but actually u dont need to send me any messages , just dont add me then , if u dont like me , PLEASE BLOCK ME IN STEAD ~!

YES IM VERY COCKY to those strangers who approach me for some VERY STUPID reason . I know not everyone takes advantage of others thats why i just delete those bad people and i keep the nice ones forever . I believe NOONE love people who waste their time and effort . I know that im not the only one who hate ppl who forwarding things to us and i wont be the last either . You waste my precious time for deleting your WORK . Hey , if u try to tell me ' Bitch , if u r so busy then dont play friendster lah , act busy konon ' Then im gonna tell u Hey , did i click ur page n waste ur time pasting stupid things while if im so interested to be your friend and i can spend my time writing u a few lovely lines of words in stead ?? Get it ? I HATE FORWARD THINGS ~ Imagine your friends offering u their EX , u want ah ? Or , imagine your so called friend send you something that they send to everyone and u getting the same message and u r suppose to delete them after u read , oh no , u dont even will read . ITS TOTALLY A WASTE OF TIME ~! Adui ~

WHY I DELETE PEOPLE EVERYTIME WHEN IM EXTRA FREE ?? I ask you this , u have more than 50 accounts , u made one very special account to keep valuable people in it , AND U ADD IN SLEEPING PIG ?? Even if u dont have more than 50 accounts , u just have one account and u only can add a limited amount of people , will u wanna add people who u will never never know even when u stop playing friendster one day , and you cant add your nice nice friend into the account coz ur account is FULL , coz u r WASTING your time and space for some MEANINGLESS PEOPLE who add u up n kept quiet . Yes ? Then ok , have it that way . You know why i have more than 50 accounts ? Coz i have so many SLEEPING friend . And why i made a private account ? Coz i choose my friends and i only keep nice nice people here . EVERYONE in this account is SPECIAL to me . If u dont keep in touch coz u just wanna add me up n fill in your quota of friends , add me in my normal account which i dont even wanna login to lah . ANd if u dont like me just ont care to add me lah , dont view my account , dont send me message . Good , coz i can save up my time for nice nice people . U r not worth it ~! How many times i wanna repeat ? Im not being some cocky shit thinking that so many people are lining up to be my friend but im definitely not a girl who just treat everyone as nice EVEN IF U TREAT ME NICE ~ I know when n who to be nice or extra nice to and who doesnt deserve even a word from my mouth .

Hey girls , dont tell me u treat every guy extra soft and nice . Yes ? Then u're such a cute girl . You must be so busy with phone calls and messages hor ? You must be rich coz ur bill is so high every month calling ALL your friends . And you must be a FREE person , coz u r so free all the time , no need to work and you are so so popular coz u have alot of '' nolah , we're just friends'' de guy friends hor ? You know what i mean , yes u do , i know u do ... Imagine your guy friends around u know that u r treating everyone as nice like a cute little princess , how would your boyfriend feel ? Why not be your friend ? He can touch u , he can hold u , u ' teh ' him , and he's SINGLE ~ Hey , i like that . Turn the other way round , if your boyfriend treats every girls as nice , r u happy ? Coz u get the same treat anyway . Why not be his friend , u get as much love , and u r still SINGLE ~ Ya , dream on ... go sleep earlier ya ... IN YOUR DREAM ~

GUYS , I will only talk normally to MY FRIEND and i will only treat the guys that i respect and the guys who respect me a little nicer . The only one i'll be extra nice to will only be ONE VERY SPECIAL PERSON which is , forever ... my boyfriend !! Guys , if i treat u not to say nice but just normal , u guys tot im being so self centered and so egoistic to just ''ying chau'' you and tot that i always think that im so good . If i talk to u guys soft n nice , u guys tot im falling in love with u or that i like u so much or that i want u more than just a simple friend and after sometime of being together and u guys confess and i say i just treat u as my normal friend , u say im playing and fooling u around like a pet all the time , that i'd cheated ur love and shit ~! Then when i make it so straight from the beginning that we can just be friends and shield myself up whenever u guys go into funny topics , u say im over protective or that im haunted by my past and dare not open up myself to others n bla bla bla . Hey , what u want me to do ? This cannot that cannot , ARGH ~!

READ THIS : I know what im doing , i know when to be nice and when i shouldnt be nice , i know who to be nice to and who not to be nice to , i dont have extra time to play around with u guys chit chatting over phone n shit . Im VERY STRAIGHT FORWARD , if i like u i like u, if i dont like u , u dont even have a chance to see me or even speak to me , and if i hate u , u will never see me or have the chance to talk to me at all . Coz since u r worth nothing to me , i dont care even u die in front of me , i dont care ~ So if u're my friend , please dont always thought that i duwanna be your friend coz u r not good enough . It's just that im a little tied up by appointments n being a little busy nowadays , im not forgetting you guys lah ...

So , if u call me and i pick up your phone but i say ' sorry , im busy now ' i mean --- im really sorry that everytime u call me and i tell u im so busy , but i will talk to u when im free , im really sorry ~! But some of u think i hate u guylah and i duwanna befriend with u anymore lah and bla bla bla . Hey , if i dont wanna be your friend , i'll go like this in stead '' Excuse me , please dont call me anymore . I dont like you '' So , next time if i say im busy it means im really busy , nothing more than that . Im not running away from you or being cocky . If u still dont get it , go buy a dictionary and find for the word - BUSY , see what it tells ...

If you keep in touch with me , u stay as my friend . If u dont , i delete u without hesitation . Even in my real life , If u dont contact me for a decade , i'll erase your number from my phonebook , if u r my friend u'll surely know what i mean then . I tell u why . Do you call someone YOUR FRIEND if they see u all the time in their list but they dont even wanna call or drop a simple message to say hi ? See ? GEt what i mean ?? If u add me up to just fill up your quota , go get another number , coz im looking for friend , not collector ... *wink*

So please , im very happy that i have so many new nice nice cute cute de girl friends now . But i just dont hope that u forward things to me thats all . I dunno why such simple remarks also u guys dont understand . But it's just 1% of all my friends who're being the pain the the butt for forwarding those shit so its ok .

To all my friends , thanks for making my day a bright one and bringing so much joy and laughter into my life ....... Your testimonials and messages really meant alot to me . Thanks for taking your time to stop by at my page and write me few lines of words of love and sincerity , or , to read my never ending blog ....

Love always ........ Leng Yein

All u need to know about my HometOwn Kuantan ....... part 10

You can hate me for writing this but then if u could just calm down and think , im just telling the truth that no one else dare to ever reveal to others ...

My hometown - Kuantan . Not very small , but not a big city yet , or should i say developing to be one in years to come ? Life here is very peaceful , everyone knows everyone around town . No matter what u do , especially if u r those rich kids or happening people , if u did something that stunned or shock others , the next minute , the whole town knows about it . Sum up , most of the people around town talks alot .

I grew up in this lovely little town ever since i was a kid . People around town likes to compare other parent's kid with their own . People love to compare , people love to insult , and people love to show off in this town . Even just little little things , they're so afraid that the whole town doesnt know about it . Publicity in this town doesnt costs you a cent babe , u dont actually need to print flyers and banner or do some shout outs to let everyone knows what u're doing , coz people will start top spread rumors and stories about it even before u complete printing the papers . You dont believe me , come and stay for one year , if i prove u wrong then prove me wrong indeed ~

My friends and families from overseas and out of my hometown often asked me how i survive in this little town surrounding by hammerhead people and 'special' minded people . They often thought they know everything and they're the wise ones and that they always think that they're the best . They'll never wake up from their dream one day and realised that all they know is just how to boast and plain talking craps but doesnt know how to respect not others but themselves .

People in town doesnt give others break , they just non stop talking about what others do and kept on insulting others with their opinions . If it's just a simple opinion is ok but you guys around town are always too much man ~ Im so sick of you guys all the time . If the ratio for bad mouth ppl to nice people in town will be 6:4 , and im already closing one eye to give out such ratio . Short cut to understanding my point is just by one single way , come and have a nice stay in kuantan for just a year , then , u'll indulge yourself in my homely little situation and strong hold the tiny insy binsy all sorts of how the towny life actually is here .

I know i cant change the way of how people live in this town , but what i can do is to choose what kind of people im going out with . And if u dont like what i write about , just hate me n stop reading NOW and take out ur phone n start calling your friends around town n ask them to read what i wrote n hate me then , this is what u r good at right ? Well , i dont care ~ that's your way ,it has always been your way , and forever will be your way ......All u know is just to start some stupid topic and start telling people all around about someone u dont even know , hoping that the whole town will start to talk around like u and hate that person even though u dont know why you wanna hate her for . You know why , i tell u why , coz u r too free ~ And my advise , u really should go get yourself a big bottle of water , coz u know , u do alot of talking so u need alot of energy to kept u talking on and on ...

And to those of u who love to peek me wherever u saw me in a restaurant or walking somewhere in town , please , just come by and say hi will u ? Im not a white tiger , u dont need to walk round n round or pretending to be doing something and actually all u want is to look at what im doing or whatsoever . Then why dont u just stop n look in stead coz its the same right ? Coz no matter how good u r pretending my friends still saw what u r trying to do , behind you . Come on lah , my friend is everywhere lah , whatever u talk will come back to me very soon . Have u forgotten something ? Kuantan is like a ball , everything goes around , and the good thing is , it comes around very fast . And do remember something dear , karma comes around too .

I used to explain this and that , but now , i will never do that anymore . Its either u take it or u leave me alone . Be my friend , or be my enemy . Like me for who i am , or hate me for that very same reason . I dont care , i still can live my life happily without u coz im nothing to u and same , u r nothing to me . Coz i know ppl who talks about me is those who doesnt know me , then , should i say more ?

And , to those people who kept on asking around about my status SINGLE . Now , what's your problem . I believe u guys knows both of my Ex's very well right ? Everyone knows who my Ex are , Miss Pahang's Ex ? Come on ? Mr who n who n who ? Hey YOU , go get them as your boyfriend then . Why bug me ? They're still my friend , and i have no time to listen to how their life is now and then . You guys shut up and leave me alone will yah ? Wah , people's love life also u can talk , hey , i suggest u go take up a professor course and come out with a certificate so that u can go all around the world and talk . Good ? Coz u get paid ~

Single or not , seriously i wont admit that i have a boyfriend until they day i know for sure that that very guy is up for a steady long term relationship .

And i can tell u now that i had already met someone special but yet to be revealed . It's very hard for both of us either way because of the distance and some other problems which we should take in count . But one thing for sure is that he is special and he treats me respectfully and he has been very supportive . Im not a girl who will tell people around that i am single where as i promise another party that we're trying out . Now , i hereby tell all of u that when the day comes that i tell u guys im taken , stop wasting your time coz im a very loyal person at heart .

I dont mean that im putting up a ' single and still available ' sign but im also not putting up ' im married n counter closed ' sign . I dont know what'll happen next in my life but what im aiming for now is to succeed in my own career and at the same time having a very balance and healthy love life . Im too busy all the time so its very hard for me to jump start a relationship just like ( click ! ) that or to maintain a healthy relationship when well , im not in healthy condition all the time due to the stress n work im doing now ...

To all of my friends in Kuantan , u can still call me out for a drink , well since it has been really a while for me to go out for a drink . Let me count , ops ~ i really forgot when's my last time . But at least months n months ago ... Always n forever stuck in my appointments and shoots .

To all the 4+4 people out there , stop checking my friends out whenever im trying my best to have a peace of mind and enjoying a wonderful night out with my friends will yah ? I notice that whenever me n my friends are , when we're about to leave , u guys never stop peeking what car my friend's driving or never stop asking around who my friends are . And days after that , the whole town knows where i'd last parked my car and who i went out with . Aiyoh ~ If u guys are so free come stop by my shop , i have loads of things for u to do coz u r too too free ~

Why this lovely little town ended up with loads of people like u i always wonder . Every little things u guys treat it as though its the end of the world treat . Example , a true story from my friend ' What ? Your bf got u a 3k handphone ? ' Then the next thing i know is ' Hey bitch , my bf got me a 3.1k hand phone the day after u got yours ... ' and ' Hey , u girls know something , yesterday i saw XX and she told me her bf got her a 3k hand phone , Damn ~! I think she's materialistic , if its me , i wont take it ' Hey , come on lah ~ no matter what u girls say about my friend , its a 2 way thing . 1st , She's good enough to let a man spending all his money on her so whats wrong with u pulak ? Jealous ? 2nd . It's u who doesnt deserve it so does it mean that others cant have it too ? People are all the same here , they cant bare to see others are better than them or others have things that they could possibly own one . JEalous ~ blekk

You wanna show others some 'colours ' coz they have something u dont have ? Then my advise , work hard for it ~ Dont talk so much , it never helps . Work hard and get it yourself , the only difference between u getting urself something and others getting u one is that - u can get yourself something u want all the time but others just give u what u want once in a while . Dont get it ? If u r capable , u can buy whatever u want whenever u want . But if u rely on others to give u something u want , 1st , u must beg them like a dog , 2nd , its forever depending on the other party whether they wanna buy u that or not . So , y be a dog when u are a human . But one thing , my dog is luckier than u , he always get the best things from me all the time without begging . TadaAa ~ Still dont get it ? Well , u should stop reading my blog now coz u r a pityful empty person ..... in mind ~

Kuantan people , its nice coz everyone knows everyone all around coz this is however , a small town . But to those typical special breed people around town , EAT YOURSELF ~! Start talking behind me NOW , PLEASE ~ Coz u make me more famous for erm ... i dunno , for whatever u tell others about me then . Cocky ? Proud ? Stupid ? Brainless girl who has a nice body ? A girl with no true friends ? Hurry , call your friends now to view what i wrote about u people , brain wash them to hate me NOW ~ Hurry , before its too late . Coz u will be seeing my stupid face all around town in posters , banners , newspapers n magazines all the time this year . I tell u what , im back in the modeling line ~ WAhahaha ~

Sum up , screw those bad species of sub-sided minded people around the town ~ Lovely people in Kuantan , u're welcome to join me . Our click - coz we DONT CARE ~ The percentage of us winning the bad species will be 8:2 . You know why ? Coz we have better things to do in life ..... so to the bad mouthed people out there , start talking now u shit ~

Another talk of the town ......... leng yein

yEs you kNow mE bUt u Dont ... part 9

pEoPLe oFteN tHiNk tHey kNow mE , bUt aCtuaLLy , tHey dOnT ~!

There's a reason behind all the captions i wrote alongside my pictures ... People around me are doctors , psychiatrist , lawyers , plumbing guy , students , con mans , idiots , psychos , farmers , indah water ppl , bla bla bla ... YOU , can study me . YOU , can guess what im thinking now or whats my next step . YOU , can read n follow my blogs everyday and hopefully try to get to know me tru these letters and stories of mine , but u'll never understand how i felt in real , never ...

Funny how thing goes sometimes , i met nice ppl tru my blogs , and again at the same time , i met funny people . But its ok , i can absorb all that . This is what they call the balance of life eih ~! Its lovely that some people tried to switch places and picture themselves at my position , its very sweet of you thank you . But to those guys who tried a little too hard , my blogs are mainly for those who are understanding enough and close to me de ppl , so stop wasting your time try to approach me and change my view on things that i've already stated clear ~

I need nice and friendly people to keep me going now but i certainly do not need some extra pain in the butt to hop in . You can say im strong , you can also say i just try not to be weak all the time . You can say im hard working , or you can say im afraid to calm down n haunted by my pass . You can say im capable , or u can say im all about the money . You can say im realistic , but u can also say im materialistic . This is what i said before , the balance of life , the yin n yang of everything , the angel n the devil , the true fact of life ..... But again , its up to you which position u r standing and what u see in ur own point of view . And again , i dont care honey ~

Girls , thanks for accepting me for who i am tru my blog , i love u girls muah ~! Guys , dont push too hard ok ? Im not trying to promote myself to u ppl here , this is just a way of free writing as a place where i write down my thoughts and stories . U can skip my page if u think its a waste of time , no one is holding a gun forcing u to read . STOP HERE ~ DO NOT CONTINUE READING ~ IT'S CONTAGIOUS ~

To all my true friends out there , YOU , kept me going ... Who are my true friends ? You dont need to know me well , you need not met me before , YOU , are true to yourself , YOU , are true for being my friend in heart , and YOU , are my true friend indeed .... Muah ~

People , u cant judge a person tru her looks , but u can measure a girl by her experience that she'd been through and her capability of handling her life . NEVER look down on a weak person , coz u might never know who's your supporter or your strongest opponent one day ...

NEVER under estimate someone , never give up , never stop giving , never stop taking , and never stop changing ... and u'll find success coming your way ... Understand those point in a deeper way , and u'll understand what i mean n which aspect im talking about ...

Some people told me that im not secured with all the people around me , that im running away from reality , i force myself not to trust others , i locked my heart up and not to open it to people who are kind and who love me so much , i turn down others offers just to live my life all by myself , i made myself so tired coz i dont accept a single living creature's help , i bIa bla bla bla ... sum up , im scared / im haunted by my past / i cant accept my past / whatsoever ...

My feed back on your says : Right , and not right . Correct , yet not correct . Yes , but No . True , not true . Think , Analyze , and understand . Been there , Done that , Go on with it .

Whether u like it or not , i still stick with my way of doing things . I didnt ask you to follow my way , but dont u try to brain wash me and try to get me settling my life down doing things by YOUR WAY . I dont mess up ur life , so dont u try to mess up mine , coz no matter how hard u try , trust me , i know myself so well , u'll never get to change me , NEVER . I know whats best for myself , dont try to tell me what i should n shouldnt do , dont try to tell me what to do or not to do, dont try to tell me whats right n wrong (depending on what lah) , coz i dont wanna know how u live your life and how u handle your problems , diff ppl has diff ways of doing things , agree ? But WE ourselves knows what's best for ourself . Coz if i follow your way , something bad happens , are you the one others blame ? Are you going to pay for all the mistakes occurred from your stupid idea ? Are you capable of handling the shits for me ? You want me to listen to what you say , but answer me this , who are you ? Bill Gates ? Haha ~ No ? Then shut up ~ I dont care how or what u wanna do with your life , and guess what ? I dont even wanna know , im too busy with mine ... So be clear in mind now , stop wasting your time bugging me around asking me to do impossible things , hey ! Watch this ' I will always be me , whether u like it or not , its either u accept me for who i am , or FUCK OFF ' do i make myself clear now ? Dont like what i say ? Then im very sorry ...... u should move on without me now ... Cool ? No ? But im cool with it , coz i still have other nice friends around me ...... u should move on and what , try harder to change others around u then ? Good luck to you ~ May Mr.god have the extra time to bless u ya ?

We do what we must to survive , u can either accept the person for what they are , or move on without the person . Agree ? If u think its impossible to get a person who loves u unconditionally and accepts u 100% for who u r without a single thought of changing the very true YOU , u r wrong ~! There's no difference between u found a girl or a guy that understands you , at least u found one , that counts ~! There's still people out there who knows how to cherish a good person ......... and i had already met them ~ Lucky me ~!

Love a person for who they really are , for what they're made of , and dont ever change them . Coz if u did , they're not the person you first met anymore ...... and eventually , things will take turns and change ...... Cherish them , before everything's too late ...... Accept , and others will accept you ...

Love Always , leng yein ...............

Me , in the eye of strangers ~ part 7

She's always so egoistic lah , tot she's a supermodel , tot she's everything . You walk out ah , there's so many girl prettier than her lah ~ I see when she'll fall lah , very fast one , you guys just wait n see lah , she'll fall very soon ......

I believe alot of girls out there is cursing me this all the time , those girls who doesn't know me , and those guys who cant get enough of what they want from me *wink* ......

I dont care anymore ..... yes , im serious . After writing my blog for days , i got alot of feed back from girls . Im very happy that you girls finally understand my stand . Thanks for everything ...... you reply really touched my heart ...

I never thought that after such a long time of suffering from ppl's mouth , a few simple blog could change someone so much ... aNd if anyone of u out there is thinking ' this faker damn good in telling grandmother story ' tell u what bitch , go get a mic now n spread around that im a true bitch then . It's your bloody mouth , i couldnt possibly slap u cant i ? But i wont anyway , im not like you ... i live my happy life ....

Now to those who faced problems and sent me messages n overcome ur probs n thanking me , u dont need to say u owe me one . Im very grateful that out of so many good friends of yours , u messaged me in stead , u messaged a stranger to ask for help n opinion . I love you ~!~!

Different people has different opinions and views on things happening around em' . Things always happens , we cant stop them , we cant get rid of them . But what we can do is to live on n off with em' . We control our live , never let anyone control yours . Coz u'll end up suffering ...... suffering bcoz u've made a wrong choice .

I made mine twice and i learn from it . So make one today , and learn from it ~! Haha ~! Just kiddin' ...... When something happen , never run away from it . Face it in stead , learn from it , and never make the same mistake again ...

There will be a time when you needed a shoulder to lean on ... but when u look into the mirror , all you see is yourself ...... call this a self pity process . It's good to at least experience that once coz u know , by that very split second , that u need somebody so much , and u have no one by your side ...... Only then , u will learn to cherish people around you , only then .... you know how to love yourself more than anyone in this whole world ........ coz only then , u realized that when u're so so down , all u'll be left is yourself .......

Love yourself more today , coz by the end of the day , the person who'll pick u up and let u down is forever the one and only ............ your true self ......

mY sTorY tO yOu , my friends ... part 6

Sorry for muting myself out for 2 weeks , was busy with my Korea Trip . I'll be off today again and will be back on 13th Feb . Im happier even since i started writing my blog . I found out that through this very special page of mine , eventually people started to understand me and what makes me happier is that , YOU , do have the same opinion n view like me . Muah ~!

Like people use to say , we cant expect everyone to like us , but what we can do is to try our best not to prove to people , but to be honest enough n not to felt sorry for ourselves on what we're doing all the time in life today and dont regret later on ...

Once , i believe everyone had the same experience , that we have a few good friends that we trusted them n love them so much , and we could possibly do everything to help them get outta troubles , and guess what , we're getting into troubles . Then , people didnt thank us but then accuse that we are the one causing troubles for friends . I learn something today , help yourself n not others when u know that the HELP u offer will not HELP urself in return . If something u do can drag u down , leave your friend . Remember one thing , friend will be there when u need them , not causing trouble for you . Yes , if u runaway when ur fren need u is wrong , but then i ask u sumthing , if what ur fren doing is not worth u helping , who would help u in return after u helped them n u pulak got into deep shit ? Them ? If they can help u in return , why did they need ur help at first ? Get this right , a good friend will only make u happy , maybe cheer u up a lil when u're being a pain in the butt , forcing themselves to chat with u when u wanna bla bla bla ur stupid stories for hours and yet , they're there , sipping a table full of different drinks , listening to u , sincerely ....... This is friend . A person who call u u