Leng Yein's Blog

After 6 months , here i am again ... part 34

It has been approximately half a year ever since I wrote my last personal blog . Well , I guess it’s time again …

Hi everybody , I am Leng Yein , a 22 years old girl who came all the way from a small town , Kuantan where everybody just seemed to hate me so much the second they wave goodbye to me but were seen smiling the second I turned back and wave again *crazy*  Guess what, now after a year staying alone in this big city , heart of Malaysia , Kuala Lumpur , the same yet not so different situation had repeated itself again I guess …

I remembered when I had to leave all my businesses behind in Kuantan , family problems caused me owing the bank so much , came down alone to this place , having no place to stay , with RM600 in my pocket yet still got cheated , being runaway by my agent being the pianist in Sunway Pyramid Tower Hotel , so I gave up on the clean money and chose my path to do some dinner jobs here n there, having some sad thoughts alone at night at the cheap backpackers hotel along petaling street , be-friended all kind of women and girls all along the way , man , im glad it’s over now …

The birth of Models Magazine , for incidents that I’ve gone through myself all along the way , I’ve decided to start something to help those who’re going through the same path like me , at least , to let them know that they’re not left alone when they almost give up on everything . Things changes all the time , and that changes a person too … changes the way they look at things , changes the way they do things , changes their life , others life as well … life is not just about ourselves , its meaningful when you have a big family …

My life was just about myself back then , coz I felt that no one truly appreciate things that I have done for them , and backstab me after they got things that hey want from me . I felt so used all the time . But then I joined friendster , and impressively this little room changes me a lot . Not the FANS profile , but friends … Really nice people around the world gathering around my little room , keeping in touch all the time . I had never met most of my friends here , but most of them made me feel that my life are worth staying on , grounded and appreciated . Whenever I lost myself here n there , there’s only a click away to find myself again , here … And I start to feel that friends are not necessary those whom u met since you’re a toddler , but those who sincerely care when things happened to you , friends are there when u close your eyes , and you know that you’re not alone …

So to all the people who hated me even before they met me in person , it is ok . Coz I believe that the same thing happen to you too … Life goes on you know … the circle of karma too … Everyone has more about the same experience in life . States of life when u felt that everything ur parents says doesn’t seemed to click , everything ur boyfriend says seemed so right , states when everybody seemed to hate you or anti you , states where you seemed to be in the limelight all the time and everybody just loves you , states where everything seemed so unfair to you , states where everything u do had been accepted and your dream come true , states where you’d wished everybody understands the things that you’re doing , states when you don’t care about anything others says about you anymore , states where you start thinking hecking everybody and yourself is the only thing that matters to you , states where you’ll do anything just to get what you want , states where you start cursing for hours on little things that you’re unhappy of , states where you wanna kill yourself but you wanna kill that person who hurt u first before u kill urself , states where you cant even remember how many states there is in your own country , yes ? So , don’t be upset when few people around you want to ruin your life so bad . They’ll do everything to make everybody hates you . It’s ok . Someday somehow , same things happens to them and they’ll just blame others . They wont understand , coz if they did, they wouldn’t be backstabbers . Smile coz you are not like them =) Even if u don’t have that many friends as those people do , soon or later you’ll find yourlself a lot of true friends …

I’ve learned to do everything by myself , probably because too many people try to fail everything that I do , so I try my best not to allow myself failing myself again … Models magazine , from bottoms up , I’ve learned a lot from the people around me … And through this project , I am thankful because I’ve stepped a step closer to the mirror where I can see who had changed for the step that I’ve made. I am very thankful to all those who stood aside and watched me going through all the dilemma and being supportive when others try to fail this project . I heard people saying I am just trying to use other new faces to be famous ß Aih ! , I have sugar daddy behind my back ß thanks for imagining my perfect life , I am a good pretender ß thank you , I am very manipulative ß clap clap clap ! , that my money came from someone / somewhere else ß your bank ? , some people are trying to psycho people around me to stay away from the project … it’s a bit heartbreaking but it is ok , people have their own right to believe what they chose to believe so I’ll just stay out from the conflict I guess .

To those people who wanted to see Models Magazine fail so fast , have mercy please . It was out in market only for a day now . Can’t you only start cursing after , maybe a week ? At least a little chance for the poor project … The worst you can do is not buying it , but please don’t say that the new faces inside are not good enough , complaining about the new faces’ standards and qualities . Did you not know the actual purpose of the magazine ? To give a chance to those people who had been treated like dirt , like they’re nobody , like they’re never good enough . This is a chance where they can stand up for themselves and speak out to the world that they are worth something , that they are trying to change into someone better , they are good people. They are sincere , they are friendly , lovely , caring , loving . They learn , and they appreciate … If you keep teasing them , you are not making their life any better , do you want them to stay being low self-esteem all the time ? Why ? So that you feel good coz you know that you are better than them ? Why are you so mean ? If you don’t like to see them changing into someone better , you are so selfish . Imagine if you are one of them , how would u feel ? Put urself in other’s shoes sometimes … get the whole picture …

I do not mind how you go around telling people about me ( kindly remember that you do not know me and I do not know you too ) but please be kind for once not to bring those new faces down . For so long so many people had been mean to them , they’re suffering from being low self-esteem , always thinking that they are not good enough and they had to quietly suffer all that alone . Just for once , please , let them have a chance to breath and feel happy , and smile . They do not want to be a supermodel , they just want to be appreciated and feel good about themselves , that’s all . Is it too much to ask ? Have a heart , please …

To all the kind hearted people , public , medias and photographers , thanks for attending all the events of the new faces . You might not know what they’ve told me , with tears and laughter , they are very very happy , thankful and grateful for everything that you’ve done for them … I know some of you got fired by strangers who doesn’t support the new faces but all your effort are deeply appreciated by all of us . We will always stay grounded and remember all your kindness toward us . These new faces promised to keep changing and bringing their best to you , better and better as time comes . If there’s any faults during our process of growing up together in this family , I sincerely apologize to all of you . I know there is no excuse for making faults but I really do hope that you can forgive us because we admit that we are not perfect and we might make mistakes here and there along the way but we will accept our faults and we will learn , and not repeat our mistakes again … give us a chance … we will improve …

To all the people out there around the world , I know that some of you are too far to come all the way here to Malaysia to give some sincere support for the new faces but your love and care will always be appreciated and remembered .

It had been a meaningful journey throughout the whole process of the making of the first issue of Models Magazine … the ‘’behind-the-scene’’ and ‘’things-that-u’ll-never-ever-know and feel’’ experiences had left me so many unforgettable stories … and so many meaningful lesson and experiences in life for me …

Words can never tell how grateful we are to all of you … we owe you a lot , and we shall repay you by being a sincere and genuine friend … a family … for life … no matter where we ended up to be in the future … we are a family … and this family is growing … with love , care and sincerity … trying to make a difference by touching other’s life … learning to accept , care and love …

If everybody learned to love , this world would be so beautiful …

Love Always ,

Leng Yein

ps : To all our team who helped us along the way in completing the first issue of Models Magazine , YOU , made this happen ... i sincerely thank you so so so much and more ...

Birthday words from my heart ... part 27

Dear friends ,

It's my bday today ... im happy for things that im lucky enough to have got and have ... Been locking up myself in my room for 3rd day now since my trip to ktn for my earlier bday celebration . Able to complete my friends acc mslengyein@yahoo.com for my bday just for u =)

Happy birthday to me my dear friends , myself ... It's been such a roller coaster journey for almost one year after i'd shifted to kl .

Greatest love to all of you ... especially you my dear waiwai thanks for calling me up just now right on time dont need to rush the astro guy thought =) hehe , Sean Sean my princess thanks for thinking of accompanying jiejie n afraid that jiejie no ppl teman n i guess u r right coz tonight after my bday dinner jiejie will be alone =) but it's ok , and thanks for being there Jesus dont drive so fast if u accident who gonna bring me out for makan at mamak ah ? Hehe =) Dear Jefferson,right in time again i suppose , ur boss gonna fire fire u with cam cam if u run outta Phileo for me =)

All the girls n guys from my room , yes u know who u r , we kept in touch no matter how far we are n regardless of some we never even met before but are friends for years through this lil room , thanks for taking ur time n 20 cents sending me a birthday wish ... im very very touched =~~~)

Ps : Thousand thanks *big big smile* for all the wonderful n thoughtful messages , testimonials n smsS from all of you =) By remembering it meant alot ...

Love you always ,

Leng Yein

My 2007's Blog ... Part 26

Ehem ehem … my first 2007 blog .

Kick starting a better *silent* or worst year . Flashing back at those new faces , old faces , familiar faces , and always there – the “wish-not-to-see-them-again faces” ~! Haha ~! God just love us so much sometimes ya ~ Well dear friends , are you happier now or the other way round ? Why ? Plan to make it a brighter one ahead ? You should , you know ? Coz 2007 will be over soon before u even realized it . Just like how 2006 had left us in a glimpse of light *sight* one year by gone … More backstabbers if ur life seemed to be better in their point of view , more friends if u shine among others , more tasks if u r more capable than the rest , more responsibility coz we’re growing up , more cash cash cash coz we worked harder than before , less steps to succeed our dreams n reach our goal , less worries coz we’ve seen more than before , happier coz we don’t care about tiny things happening around us , happier coz we’re a better n stronger person now than before , sad because time ticks away so fast that we cant be able to grab hold every second n spend it worthwhile , sad coz we’d lost our chance due to our mistake , but no matter what’s the outcome , WE are better now … coz we learn from our days … from time to time …

This year , I wish all of you nothing but striking the very best of yourself and achieving all the tough tasks n succumb hard times and downs , ending year 2007 with tears touches ur heart … voice within telling urself that there’s nothing to worry about now , coz you are stronger … I’ll be here in the corner of the world , praying for ur safety n strength alongside u and overcome all the impossible making everything possible … I believe in you … all of you , coz u r my FRIEND …

The sweet ones who’re walking down a rough path in their relationship , have faith in YOUR love … let it lead the way . If it had to end someday , let all of us just pray that the SOMEDAY will come much later … Give a chance to both souls having to pass the test of love … People who ended their relationship recently , pick urself up again , fill those missing pieces by knowing what have u done and not in the past that leads to where u’re standing now and don’t repeat the mistake again in the future … People who felt like it’s time to start a new relationship anytime from now , I’ll ask cupid to aim accurately and shoot ok ? May all the best of luck be with all of you in this very fresh new year of 2007

Im more focused n clear on what I want now . And im very happy coz I have had you people walking alongside me for every step I take … all of you have been so supportive n lovely to me . Thousands of thanks n kisses showered n dedicated specially to YOU , humbly from no other than this lady , me … I know that the economy will be slowing down n reach quite a peak this year but I would like to wish all of u never-the-less than all the best in everything you do and will be very very very lucky ~! Be patient and your time will come to you very soon . Hey , best things always come when u least expected it to ~! Remember this , from me ok ? Girls , I’d moved in to my new condo . If u’d like to join me for a swim in the pool kindly let me know ok ? Then we can go makan makan =)

Kicking start 07 , there’s few people that I would like to thank apart from all my lovely friends who stood by me side-by-side all the time . To these people , I hereby dedicate my words to you …

My dearest Lou Poh Zai a.k.a Apple a.k.a Waiwai a.k.a Lim Kah Hui a.k.a Karena a.k.a My Manager ( fui yoh ~! )

There’s always something about pieces . Soft and sensitive yet wise n smart . Thanks for all your love , your trust , your care , your surprises and your understanding . No matter where I am , I know that I still have someone whom I can count on . Hey , 24-7 on call ain’t an easy task weih ~ My life that im going through now really proves that u’d put in alot of effort n it make a different , a lot sometimes . Sometimes I even wonder , why do we always ended up in Redbox one ? Aiyah *laugh* Eh lou poh u know or not , y we so ‘so hai ‘ one ? Aiyer … now only I know why god create u n me , to wrack the world man ~! We’re fated together forever de ~ Hahaha , u cannot runaway from me ( ngiak ngiak ngiak ) Wei , why we always laugh non stop when we’re together one , weih ah , why ah ? U begin to love ur job eih , wei , fast lah ~ yes yes ~ hehehe ( u guys wont understand what we’re writing coz haha ~ its our SH language ) She’s a very very good singer eih , come come text her n she’ll ended up with u in redbox (waiseh ~! ) yes , I’ll probably be there with u too … we’re unseparatable ~! WUahahahaha ~ Eih , y u always come my house n break my things one ? U cannot find the hole ? Nah , there lah ~ Hahaha ~ My oh my , my dearest lou poh , u’re the best n the sweetest . From the day we came down to kl together n start over our life , hugging together in Petaling street crying ( wah sai ) Aih , shit , u still remember anot ? Until the day we go shopping here n there , having so many same same things , having so many same same stories , same same underwear ( WAH ) , same same experience ( WHAT THE DUT ~! ) , hahaha , always laugh at ourselves , eh nonono , always laugh at yourself ( Wuahaha ) ok lah , I laugh u u laugh me ok ( An Yong Eh Sai Ah ? ) Actually she’s beside me when im half way writing this paragraph of her …But I wanna tell you ( Eh , dun finish my sugus lah weih , what am I suppose to eat later ? ) ok , continue , I wanna tell you ( Yes , Hai Yan ) that u’re the bestestestestestestestestestest ( Ashma , chiak lat ) friend ( Yes , Lou Poh Dai Yan ) I’d ever have =~~~~~~~~~~~( ( Damn Kam Thung ) Muah Muah Muah

My Beloved Geng ( Brian , William , Jesus , Leslie , Calvin , Shaun , Chee Yang , Andy , Tiffany )

Thanks for all your time , effort , forgiveness n understanding . You guys always believed in me in all the ways n everything I do . Helped n accompanied me along the way down my path . Without me noticing it has been a pretty cool 5 months now , although to be precise just for 4 months , this one month of silence changed a lot of things , both ways . It’s sad how it became but some things are eternal … The trust n believe I had in u guys are superb . No matter what’s the outcome , the same saying still goes - Be careful ~! u guys are dear . Not worth to be outta sight , get what I mean ~ You’re the best guy group I’d ever had =) Those party , the gathering , the surprises , Hey , Calvin ! I still remember the puzzle leh ~! And Brian , now im very friendly to the phone already =) but Victoria still remain untouched … The tortoise I duno u chuck where already . William , u’re the man ! Go Go Go ~! God bless u that u’ll get everything u want very very soon . Jesus , Shh … will come one , very fast very fast , u boleh ~ haha ~! Leslie , the caretaker … with u around , everyone’ll be just perfectly fine =) Shaun , u're always the quiet quiet boy so sweet sweet de ha ~ good good , mui mui zai like like =) U're a good person in heart ... Chee Yang , wei once u touch forever ARE ONE ah , hahaha , cham loh ~ how how ? Tiffany , im very happy seeing u back in line smiling already . Ema is taking care of u hah ~ Must take care of her for me also n i know u already did =) U're one amazing girl u know that . SKL , our mark mark yah ~ Andy , now kaya already , good good , one day must belanja me eat ... No matter how fast time flies , how many things happened , u're the first n ever group of guys that i am so comfortable being with ... everything that u guys have done meant so much to me n will be kept in my heart forever ... our stories , unbelievablely crazy ~ Wuahahaha . Dont worry , secrets will be kept , can still kau lui one , no prob , we go kau together gether !

( All Guys Especially : Nic , Jefferson , Colin , Darren , Jeffrey , Brandon )

( All Girls Especially : Lou Poh , Princess , Vivian , Ainsley , Angie ) And to all my dearest friends who knows me ,

Thanks for believing me in every way n everything that i do ... All the ups n downs , few of YOU r there for me , standing , eh no , sitting side by side in a big big group teman-ing me in mamaks ( aiyah ) Hehe , n always end up mamak again ... ( aisheh ) Haha ~ Sorry lah , wait until IT'S opened then i treat u guys a free meal k ? Muahahaha ( ding dong ! ) Thanks for being a one stop 7-11 station for me , it helps preventing me from going to the cuckoo bird stage =) Aih , what to do ... life pranks alot ~ U know i know lah ... Whenever i need ambulance u guys will carry ur thongs n rush to me , wah lau eh , so kam thung * sob sob* Aih , such a ma fan also u can stand , pui fuk pui fuk ~ (sleng sleng) Yo maN ! i lap u mAn ~ You know whAt im sAy'in ~ haha ~ Really , from the bottom of mAh hArt , really really thank you for being there ... really really thank you <-- really REALLY de ~ Wanna say u people ah , long long story loh . Flooding ur phone with my bla bla bla lah u also didn't report flood at ur place to police , didn't reply ur sms summore u keep sending then i reply weeks later also u not angry ( if me i give up <-- i must learn from u weih Kam Ba Teh ) , Helping me get ticket lah , book place lah , accompany me go buy stuff lah ( n choose for me somemore fui yoh ! <-- keng weih ) , my cow drop into my toilet bowl also u come to rescue lah ~ ( from seremban to kl also boleh WAHHHH ) FU la Mak very yi hei Ha , i like i like ( nod nod nod ) Good Good , my good good Heng Dai Ah ~ Mmm , Mmm , i will remember this Heng Dai one ~ Go ur place makan ALL free ( calculator dut dut dut one year i can save hmm ... alot also weih , can buy kancil ) Always worry that i stay home become sot sot n try to bring me go sedut some poluted air outside ( good heng dai ) tap tap chest , Hou Yeh , i Salute kao kao , very very impress , proven still got good man outside for my girlfriends ~ ( girls , go grab grab grab ) i dun charge u introduction fee one .

Thanks for checking up on me although sometimes i didn't reply but u never disconnect our line =) It's my bad n im sorry , but it doesn't mean that i ignore or stopped everything there . I remember u DID contact me , i do =) No matter how long we didn't contact each other , u still call or sms to make sure that im still in one piece . You girls are darlingZ ~ Muah Muah Muah ~ I can save a kontena of SKll seing ur warm warm sms =) ( close eyes eyes n feel the love ) Wah , felt like going naked weih ~ Muah , u girls are bling bling u know that =) The world shine coz of you =) YOU know who u are ... thanks for everything =)

To all the coming-soon friend of mine ,

Thanks for taking your time messaging me telling what ppl told u or what u've heard from ppl about me . Im truly grateful for everything that u've done. Coz from no where , u have faith in me ... u r my precious friend =) I believe that no matter how bad it seemed to be somehow u believe in urself , n each second that u took to keep in touch with me means alot ... and each n everyone of u are sincere ... and for that sincerity , i humblely thank u here ... now ...

Love ,

Leng Yein

ps :

I notice alot of u switched ur page to secretive mode , hmm ... good good ...

My first friend acc had been suspended coz someone took over it , aih ... to let u girls know how much i love u , i actually spent more than 24 hours paste n cut n create this new Friends getaround account for US =)

add up dears ~

mslengyein@yahoo.com ...... ur pic might be in =) hehe

Cherish n make the best out of everything ... part 25

Its the end of my new life,new environment,new line,new friends,new home,new challenges,great old 2006 ~! A soon to come new life,new challenges,new friends,new problems ... see , one thing about life is,it's like a donut, like i always tells my frens,it goes around...

U either hate it,or the other way round,like it,but when u happen to understand it,u gonna face it regardless of u liking or hating it.Sad or happy,up or down,its totally up to u urself.there's never a need to regret,put it this way to feel better,u learn from what u call mistakes.Hey,we're young eh,no?then y r u still playing friendster? See ?

2006 leaves a great impact n experiences in my life,i'll never forget this year ... everything changes,my life,my job,my views... but im happy tat for everything that had happen in such sudden,i now ended up having my own life here - right in the center of KL . im happy , n i want all of u to be happy too ...

Its been months since i last wrote my blog , im really thankful whenever i saw messages regarding my bloggging . Im aint famous blogger , but thanks to YOU , who took ur time reading each n every letter that i type .

Met alot of girls n left them my number , telling me problems from boyfriends to family to everything , surgery , medication , lifestyle ... its good to gather together n talk , i love talking ... i learn alot from them , reminding myself of my own problems , my past experience , n never forgets how it became n changed things all over , how good n bad times r ... ppl always ask me to forget the past, but im like a rock i never tolerate this advice . coz i love to remember every single details so tat i'll learn from it n carry a better view walking down my path ....

Im happy tat i've met almost every new fren of mine n find them good ppl . Back in my hometown , most of the ppl who knows me (by name) coz i grew up there love to backstab alot , try to ask ur frens in kuantan of me , u'll know what i mean . as though they're my twins ,, they even can tell u things about me which even me myself doesnt know that . haha ~ they are so cute , i wonder if the circus would love to hire them ... clown ~! but all my new frens here , yes 'YOU' ~! they are so sincere , everyone is so humble , so down to earth , so patient . And one very important quality , they are very understanding . I love people who respects others .... n i find alot of people in town who actually cares for others , the elderly , the needy , the down ones with problems ...

I've met different walks of life n i notice a very big difference n i simplified all of them n class them into 2 kinds . The End & The Forever .

THE END :
People who try to hard to impress me saying how rich how famous how many ppl call them how many ppl like them what present or message they get from girls how busy they are how high class they are how successful they are how knowledgeble they are how good they are how kind they are how many house they have what car they drive how many famous ppl they know how big their house r how fast they drift their carcar how cheap this girl is how expensive his watch is when they r gonna get married how many choices of girls they have how many annoying girls texting them how sweet they are to their Ex's when did they last made out when did he last text or call a girl n when did i actually tell u im interested in all of these above ? Come on , u think by telling me how cheap this girl is texting u impresses me ? Chill out man , why on earth is that girl KEEP texting u IF u didnt text her some sweet things beforehand . u think we're stupid ? Respect the girls man , u know what im saying ? If i keep telling me the girls r annoying , please remind urself that i'll not text u coz u might show this to other girls telling them the same thing too . Turn it around , ur gf doesnt want the cute guy overthere to know she's attached.U text her saying u miss ur baby so much,she show ur sms to the cute guy,u're dumbo,u dont know.How's that?Sweet ? This is what u r doing lah brother ~ Im a pain in ur butt yes surely i agree , but its an advice , things r going around babe , one day it'll U-turn n hit u baqck right in front of ur pretty face SMACK!!!

THE FOREVER :
U r a listener n a talker , u know when to stop when to pull out a tissue when to get other a ketchup when to get the bill when to stop n look whether there's car coming from right or left when is the time to stop texting the girls when is the time to call up n ask whether we're doing fine when is the best time to cheer us up when is the time to say u r not free coz u have to go n get a christmas card for us when is the time u finish fixing ur carcar n fetch us for mamak when is ur girlfriend coming back n we'll go swimming together how many true friends u have in a group how many days u didnt call ur mum n ask how she is how many hours u slept how free u r now n how helpful u can be how patient u r and above all , just do everything that u SHOULD do, we'll do the rest from there ... thanks for everything

The fact of THE W's :
THE FOREVER - Where(the right place), When(the right time), hoW(the right way), What(the right thing), Who(the right click)
THE END - those smart ones who goes W the way they thought it is WE(tat's never we until WE say it),WANT(what about what We want?),WOMEN(WE r not ur toy),bmW(a kancil can get me to the same destination too),Wisky & Wine (come on la brother,this is never a good excuse to get naughty),Whistle(i pity ur mum coz her baby doesnt know how to respect women),WHY(simple , because WE dont like u), WOW(love the tits? Want me to smack that on ur face till u choke n die,i'll b likely to do that if ensure that u'll really die after i do it,my pleasure)

Lessons learned in year 2006 n will b brought forward to year 2007 :
Independant - When u lost everything,u left YOURSELF to fill up missing pieces
Cherish - Heartbreak if THEY never cherish u,its fine,dont b the same like THEM,Do it differently
Respect - Shut up,think,salute,learn n smile,there's always a lesson to b learn from that someone
Positive - There's always 2 sides,black n white.Hey,ur life will not b Grey forever lah ~ Think PINK ?
Grateful - Never forget ppl who helped u,even a small favour,be thankful,they're LITTLE BABY GOD
Appreciate - Ppl dont owe u nothing to lend a hand eh ? So ?
Remember - Ppl who pins u to death or carry u up.Never forgive urself for forgetting either one of them
Care-Less - Their parents didnt educate them the right way,but urs did.So kindly forgive their stupidity
Care-More - Sometimes somethings might even mean nothing at all to u,but it might be so much to them
Step Out - Step aside,its like a watching a movie,scan the details.Step back in.Everything'll b clear now
Switch - Dont understand why r things going like this?Imagine u r the other party,this way,u'll know why
Smile - It doesnt cost u a cent,but it has the power to open up the world to u
Time - Every second is precious,Grab every possibilities n live life to the fullest.u cant go back again
Moody - Laugh when u r happy,Cry when u r sad.Hey,u have a heart,rite? U wont get summoned
Learn - U dont have to make mistakes to learn,take others' mistakes as ur lessons in life,safer this way
Give - A small favour might turned out to b ur future staircase or at least , a ladder
Talk - If u cant find a nice thing to say about someone,dont say anything...rumours starts here !
People - Catagorize them.Give priority to the special ones or they'll not b special anymore
Think - Dont listen to what majority says.Sit,calm,quiet,feel,relax,recall n do the math
Party - Loose weight,sleeves,depths,length but never loose urself.Know what u r doing.Respect urself
Test - Analyse all data.Listen.No one can get pass ur lie-detection program
Truth - Trust only what u've experienced,not what u heard/saw.Things might not b the way it seemed 2b
Help - U're not the cupid,stop involving urself in other couples problem.Wanna break up,break la~!
Daring - If u dare to do it,dare to admit it. If not, dont do it lah ~
Right / Wrong - There's never an answer to this.Look n check at all sides all the time.Chill man ~
Bad girls - U dont need them!Lagi dun need to cry n b sad.Karma does exists
Bad boys - When u r rich but old n dying,i'll b praying for u that u have a good nurse by ur hospital bed =)
Good girls - They have alot to learn from each other,coloring our life n shines the way through
Good guys - I learn alot from them the reason behind the war of opposite sex,n debate ! Haha
Shhh - If that's ur darkest secret n u duwan anyone to know,dont tell anyone,dont blame others when it leaks,coz u r the one who let it out in the first place

Well , i guess this would probably be my last blog for this year now coz im flying off again.To every beautiful people in this room,may all your best wishes come true n may all the best things in life are shared ... May all the days ahead comes with good chances n changes n may all of you stays pink of health all the time ~!

Love Always .... Leng Yein

Hurtful messages from you ...... part 24

Dear friends who always take ur time checking all my blogs n captions n details , i blessfully thank all of you ... including those who dont know me but hate me or mistaken or misunderstand my life , i thank u doublely ~

There's so many different feed back that i get from people all the time . There's few people whom i specially wanna thank here among all of the people , U know who u r coz u ppl were the one siding me protecting me n believing in me no matter what others says . U TRUST me for what i wrote , for what i say , for what it seems n for what i did . Thank you ! Thank you ! Thank You so so very much coz YOU are the one keeping me going on no matter how tough my time was n is ...

People , i have so many things on my shoulder which u tot tat im just another pretty face ( which i think so many girls without titles still look better ) with titless n a egoistic life . Do u know something ? If i were to really give my heart out n taste the fame , i would have left Malaysia so long ago . I'll do anything i can do get what i want in life , if u like to think sideways then be it ~ Coz i believe that everyone does that all the time . If u dont do ur best , why r u here now ? Doing ur worst to type n login to friendster for nothing ? Come on ~ Im not stupid ~ Dont point ur finger at others when YOU are doing the same .

Everyone have this special chance to know big bosses so do i . But the decision lies on us ourself . If i really like the light , i'll be in china or hong kong now coz i have connections there , tat's y i fly about all the time u dumb ~ I dunno why im telling u this but its stated so clearly in my caption , what i really want in the end is always a simple family of my own . How can my life be simple if i know everyone around n seen all around . Do u ever see me in club ? Do u ever see me drinking ? Yes ? NO ~! Why ? Because my life is simple , i stay home , listen to my jazz , writing my diary ( and damn , whats ur prob , cant a girl write her diary , i've been writing it for years for heaven sake , its my time , my book , my pen ~! blek ! ) ( stop laughing ) , go mamak with my beloved lou poh waiwai , meet my sister Leng Sean n her bf for dinner n lunch when she's free , that's it ~! Simple . Ok , i admit , shopping sometime but so what ? Its simple ~!

Yes , i smoke socially but i NEVER drink nor like clubbing . But does it mean that a girl who're clean who doesnt smoke n drink is good ? Ask urself , press the ques close to ur heart n do the math my dear .

Im only 21 n i have to pay a damn list of things for people . Yes , my family my dear . I never had time off for myself until now . I travel working too . U tot its so nice ah ? Flying here n there huh ? Cool ? Yes , i made it cool coz i try to make the best of it thinking it was cool but hey , think ~! Where do all the money goes ? Not 100% for myself . I can never tell u how big my burden is but let me tell u this , my life aint easy AT ALL . I've climb but i cant fall too deep coz if i fall , r u gonna do the paying for my sake ? If yes then its easy , im gona give u just 3 little accounts now n u bank in sums to it every month , sometimes few times a month . Then i'll delete my account n u'll never see my annoying or PROUD face again . Cool ? High five ~ i can rest ~ Yes ~

U'll never understand my life my dear ( yes , those who hate me ) . My friends will love me n i love them too , i'll be there for them whenever they are down when im around , sorry if i cant b there when im not in town but i'll be there again when im back . MY FRIENDS know it very well . YOU dont know it coz u were never my friend n u duwanna be my friend . ( ya , u will b thinking now that WHO WANTS TO BE FRIEND WITH ME ) Then u know what , ask urself back , who wanna be ur friend . Then stop wasting ur time reading this n carry on ur life coz im always at least few hundred kmsss far away from ur perfect life .

U think i love writing my profile this way huh ? Then i ask u what am i gonna write when im always not around ? What i like to eat what i dont who i like who i dont what colour i like ? Hey , i do friendster because i's always away n whenever ppl ask me to send them my profile i am not free or convenient n this is the only perfect way to get my picture sent to their computers my dear . I have no big brains to remember all single details so they can get my full profile from here just cut n paste , easy n fast n simple , just the way i want it . If i have free time i would have do MSN already , why didnt i ?

I prefer few sincere frens than junk up strangers whom i dont even know by their face , not to mention remembering their name for christ sake ~ I met few really nice friends tru friendster n this makes me trust people in here . Just because of few who dont understand what friends for doesnt mean that u can get ur finger into my life . Never ! Coz no matter how much u wrote , there's 100 times more sincere people writing things to me than u now remember that .

Friends who correct me in a way , i really appreciate that . Coz u taught me my life , u make my mind clear of whats wrong or right . But people who judge me , u are never right n u know why ? Even if i did something wrong n u press it on so hard , ask urself , did i offend u ? If i offend u coz u dont like looking tru my profile then just block me ~! i dont care , im not interested in clicking u either now i tell u this ~! U tot tat im so proud , then ask urself , when u r writing these to me , u wrote it sincerely or because u feel angry n dislike me . Do u know me ? Are u my friend ? Then just advise n dont judge . Coz who do u think u r to judge someone else . If u r holding ur last breath n u r 70 or 80 years old , its ok coz u have been tru n seen too much n judging me coz u want to make me a better person . But for ppl in early 20s , before judging others , ask urself , why r u sounding these things out . You know what ? Coz things doesnt go the way u want it to be , to see , to hear , to know . But hardly did u know that life always go this way . We dont always get things we like the way we want it to most of the time , or should i put it this wat - all the time .

Your life is tough , i believe it so , and bare in mind mine too . Not to say twice as your but equally , ok ? Im PROUD ? Yes , proud to settle all problems with the help of true friends around me , who're always mentally there for me all the time like YOU ... financially ? I'll do it myself dont worry , wont call u out borrowing money from you :)

So , be it this way ... have it your way ...

Love you lovely people all the time ...... Leng Yein

How did i manage my account ... part 23

Im in Taiwan Taipei's cc now writing this very cute lil blog . Here for a week coz my fashion show n performance clashes at the same week ... will b in taipei n gao shiong ... will be back on 11th but flying to china for 2 weeks will b back on 25th but flying kuantan for a piano performance on 28th will b back to kl in November .

Honey girls , i'll read ALL ur messages dont worry . Guys , i'll only read sincere messages . Psychos , i know u r so free to drop me ur KIND of messages , backstabbers , thanks for taking ur time telling me things u never know about my life n my ending . That's all

How do i reply messages ? Easy , ppl who have cartoon pics or question mark photos i'll just click n delete all . Ppl who send me smiles , i'll delete too besides those who attached it with meaningful messages .

Friendship request , i'll delete those who havent send me a message addressing themselves before i check my request , i'll add those whom keep in touch for a long time or those who i know in real life . i'll block those who annoys me ( coz its my account i can do whatever i want ) im sorry ~

my 1000 friend . I block n delete all the time coz i love to have really sincere friends . I have only 1000 n i aint gonna do quota or junk up my page . All the people in my page are really nice friends n u guys n girls , please add them up as ur friend too coz they are safe n nice . Please dont blame me if things go too far beyond coz i dont guaratee tat ~

Reply , i read most of my messages but i only reply those who took time to write to me , meaningful or my friends message . Im sorry ~

This , is how i have a little time for friendstering ~ its a wonderful place to go around n spend my time ... with meaningful people like YOU ~

Love ,

Leng Yein

I sincerely thank you ... part 21

Special thanks to all the beautiful people below …. These people are the ones who made my life so colorful … I apologize if I didn’t mention ur name . Below are the people who supported me all way long and cheer me up whenever I needed them especially the SPECIAL ones . These are all I can recall … Thanks for being there for me …

SPECIAL Thanks to :

Guys : Billy , Nic , Bryan , Darren , Zen , Shark , Jefferson , Sheng Zhe , Jeffrey , Khor , Brandon , Calvin , Danny , Willy , Glenn John , Henry , Summer , Hirai , Ice , Jacky , James , Steven , Ken , Chong , Kenvis , Edmund , Ryo , David , Adam , Ben , Alex , Andy , David , Joe , Jaren , Shah , Edmund , Rave , Victor , Kenny , Anthony , Ramesh , Raymond , Ricky , Stuart , Everett , Yao , Jonathan , Faymond , Gareth , Geaoffrey , Albert , Hon , Nat , Howie , John , Julian , Ka Cat , Jonathan , Karl , Kenji , Kenny , Jerry , All e Penang Male Models ( u know who u r ) , Kiaki , Terence , Wai Seng , Chris , ALL my stylists & boutique salesboys ß Wahahaha ( coz u guys gimme sincere comments n make me look better )

SPECIAL Thanks to :

Karena my lou poh zai ( You’re the best mate ever lived in this world ~! )

Princess Leng Sean ( You’re the best sister in the whole world ~! )

Girls : Angie , Wai Leng , Ai Hwa , Ai Lan , Yee , Suzanne , Joanne , Thini , Casey , Jessie , Ivy , April , Eriko , Chelene , Jersey , Angel , Kitty , Wei Iou , Wengal , Jaslyn , Ppit , Baby , Candy , Christ , Yuki , Sam , Felixia , Lina , Elvie , Winnie , Siew Chin , Ivylna , Janet , Joey , Bonnie , Catherine , Stella , Jenny , Kelly , Mandy , Maimai , May , Ester , Mica , Lisa , Pei Jing , Pinky , Whitney , Seong Teng , Mun , Michelle , Lin , Siti , Zegnia , Sheila , Baby , Agnes , Amy , Mod , Yoko , Fiffy , Melissa , Nikki , Ling , Kemaman Kopitiam Si Tau Poh & Si Tao ( Thanks for never forgetting to say Hi ) u’ll never forget to say hi ) , Heritage Peggy ( Thanks for being so nice to me always ) , Tjantek’s Kak Tjan ( Thanks for standing up for me no matter what ) , All my girls from my boutiques & outlets ( Thanks for taking care of my shop n work so hard for me , u girls are the greatest team ever )All the hawkers @ pasar Ktn ( Thanks for always serving good food ) , All my stylists & beauticians & manicurists & boutique salesgirls ( coz u chit chat with me while making me prettier ) , All my true to heart girls ( thanks for being so real ) , All the girls who messaged me in friendster n be-friended me sincerely ( u’re really sweet n I appreciate that alot ) , All the girls who dropped me a testi ( Thanks for checkin me up once in while ) , My family ( Without YOU , there will never be ME )