Leng Yein's Blog

After 6 months , here i am again ... part 34

It has been approximately half a year ever since I wrote my last personal blog . Well , I guess it’s time again …

Hi everybody , I am Leng Yein , a 22 years old girl who came all the way from a small town , Kuantan where everybody just seemed to hate me so much the second they wave goodbye to me but were seen smiling the second I turned back and wave again *crazy*  Guess what, now after a year staying alone in this big city , heart of Malaysia , Kuala Lumpur , the same yet not so different situation had repeated itself again I guess …

I remembered when I had to leave all my businesses behind in Kuantan , family problems caused me owing the bank so much , came down alone to this place , having no place to stay , with RM600 in my pocket yet still got cheated , being runaway by my agent being the pianist in Sunway Pyramid Tower Hotel , so I gave up on the clean money and chose my path to do some dinner jobs here n there, having some sad thoughts alone at night at the cheap backpackers hotel along petaling street , be-friended all kind of women and girls all along the way , man , im glad it’s over now …

The birth of Models Magazine , for incidents that I’ve gone through myself all along the way , I’ve decided to start something to help those who’re going through the same path like me , at least , to let them know that they’re not left alone when they almost give up on everything . Things changes all the time , and that changes a person too … changes the way they look at things , changes the way they do things , changes their life , others life as well … life is not just about ourselves , its meaningful when you have a big family …

My life was just about myself back then , coz I felt that no one truly appreciate things that I have done for them , and backstab me after they got things that hey want from me . I felt so used all the time . But then I joined friendster , and impressively this little room changes me a lot . Not the FANS profile , but friends … Really nice people around the world gathering around my little room , keeping in touch all the time . I had never met most of my friends here , but most of them made me feel that my life are worth staying on , grounded and appreciated . Whenever I lost myself here n there , there’s only a click away to find myself again , here … And I start to feel that friends are not necessary those whom u met since you’re a toddler , but those who sincerely care when things happened to you , friends are there when u close your eyes , and you know that you’re not alone …

So to all the people who hated me even before they met me in person , it is ok . Coz I believe that the same thing happen to you too … Life goes on you know … the circle of karma too … Everyone has more about the same experience in life . States of life when u felt that everything ur parents says doesn’t seemed to click , everything ur boyfriend says seemed so right , states when everybody seemed to hate you or anti you , states where you seemed to be in the limelight all the time and everybody just loves you , states where everything seemed so unfair to you , states where everything u do had been accepted and your dream come true , states where you’d wished everybody understands the things that you’re doing , states when you don’t care about anything others says about you anymore , states where you start thinking hecking everybody and yourself is the only thing that matters to you , states where you’ll do anything just to get what you want , states where you start cursing for hours on little things that you’re unhappy of , states where you wanna kill yourself but you wanna kill that person who hurt u first before u kill urself , states where you cant even remember how many states there is in your own country , yes ? So , don’t be upset when few people around you want to ruin your life so bad . They’ll do everything to make everybody hates you . It’s ok . Someday somehow , same things happens to them and they’ll just blame others . They wont understand , coz if they did, they wouldn’t be backstabbers . Smile coz you are not like them =) Even if u don’t have that many friends as those people do , soon or later you’ll find yourlself a lot of true friends …

I’ve learned to do everything by myself , probably because too many people try to fail everything that I do , so I try my best not to allow myself failing myself again … Models magazine , from bottoms up , I’ve learned a lot from the people around me … And through this project , I am thankful because I’ve stepped a step closer to the mirror where I can see who had changed for the step that I’ve made. I am very thankful to all those who stood aside and watched me going through all the dilemma and being supportive when others try to fail this project . I heard people saying I am just trying to use other new faces to be famous ß Aih ! , I have sugar daddy behind my back ß thanks for imagining my perfect life , I am a good pretender ß thank you , I am very manipulative ß clap clap clap ! , that my money came from someone / somewhere else ß your bank ? , some people are trying to psycho people around me to stay away from the project … it’s a bit heartbreaking but it is ok , people have their own right to believe what they chose to believe so I’ll just stay out from the conflict I guess .

To those people who wanted to see Models Magazine fail so fast , have mercy please . It was out in market only for a day now . Can’t you only start cursing after , maybe a week ? At least a little chance for the poor project … The worst you can do is not buying it , but please don’t say that the new faces inside are not good enough , complaining about the new faces’ standards and qualities . Did you not know the actual purpose of the magazine ? To give a chance to those people who had been treated like dirt , like they’re nobody , like they’re never good enough . This is a chance where they can stand up for themselves and speak out to the world that they are worth something , that they are trying to change into someone better , they are good people. They are sincere , they are friendly , lovely , caring , loving . They learn , and they appreciate … If you keep teasing them , you are not making their life any better , do you want them to stay being low self-esteem all the time ? Why ? So that you feel good coz you know that you are better than them ? Why are you so mean ? If you don’t like to see them changing into someone better , you are so selfish . Imagine if you are one of them , how would u feel ? Put urself in other’s shoes sometimes … get the whole picture …

I do not mind how you go around telling people about me ( kindly remember that you do not know me and I do not know you too ) but please be kind for once not to bring those new faces down . For so long so many people had been mean to them , they’re suffering from being low self-esteem , always thinking that they are not good enough and they had to quietly suffer all that alone . Just for once , please , let them have a chance to breath and feel happy , and smile . They do not want to be a supermodel , they just want to be appreciated and feel good about themselves , that’s all . Is it too much to ask ? Have a heart , please …

To all the kind hearted people , public , medias and photographers , thanks for attending all the events of the new faces . You might not know what they’ve told me , with tears and laughter , they are very very happy , thankful and grateful for everything that you’ve done for them … I know some of you got fired by strangers who doesn’t support the new faces but all your effort are deeply appreciated by all of us . We will always stay grounded and remember all your kindness toward us . These new faces promised to keep changing and bringing their best to you , better and better as time comes . If there’s any faults during our process of growing up together in this family , I sincerely apologize to all of you . I know there is no excuse for making faults but I really do hope that you can forgive us because we admit that we are not perfect and we might make mistakes here and there along the way but we will accept our faults and we will learn , and not repeat our mistakes again … give us a chance … we will improve …

To all the people out there around the world , I know that some of you are too far to come all the way here to Malaysia to give some sincere support for the new faces but your love and care will always be appreciated and remembered .

It had been a meaningful journey throughout the whole process of the making of the first issue of Models Magazine … the ‘’behind-the-scene’’ and ‘’things-that-u’ll-never-ever-know and feel’’ experiences had left me so many unforgettable stories … and so many meaningful lesson and experiences in life for me …

Words can never tell how grateful we are to all of you … we owe you a lot , and we shall repay you by being a sincere and genuine friend … a family … for life … no matter where we ended up to be in the future … we are a family … and this family is growing … with love , care and sincerity … trying to make a difference by touching other’s life … learning to accept , care and love …

If everybody learned to love , this world would be so beautiful …

Love Always ,

Leng Yein

ps : To all our team who helped us along the way in completing the first issue of Models Magazine , YOU , made this happen ... i sincerely thank you so so so much and more ...

For those who wanted so much but never had a chance to be a model , we will fight for you ... Models Magazine second issue

Models Magazine is a project to help those people who wanted to be a model but has been treated unfairly , let down , teased at , looked down , laughed at , rejected , low self esteem , or those whom others tells you that you are not good enough . Models Magazine is purposely made to fight for you and showcases you to the world , we give you a place to start off with , a place where no one can reject you , because everything that we do , we put you up front and ONLY chooses OUR VERY OWN NEW FACES . This would also be a platform and a training basis for all the new faces who wanted to try out , experience and to be given a chance in the modeling industry . We are not an agency . Jobs & tasks given to you will not be charged a cent or taken a cent off your payment . We just want to see you fly high , coz that is our purpose . No one can say that you are not good enough because everyone can be beautiful …

We provide make over from head to toe . We make sure our models find their true self when they are with us . Just like a loving family . We want to see everyone smiling happily all the time , proving to others that they are just who they want to be . Building their confidence and pride by being just themselves .

Models Magazine is a platform and a short cut for all the new faces . We customize everything FOR you . We create jobs , shows and everything purposely for you . We do not wait . It would be best if the new faces are active and passionate . Coz we will be sending you to international pageants , shows and other magazines to be featuring you too . We take in total newbies , new faces who dare to dream , who aren’t afraid to try , to learn , to stand out and be counted . Do not worry that you do not know anything because we make sure you know everything .

We customize runways , shows , events , functions and pageants specially for our new faces . We send our models everywhere for jobs , runways , shows , competition , international scenes , pageants etc. , giving our models the widest coverage , maximum publicity and meaningful experiences . We dare to ONLY promote the new faces because we strongly believe that everyone should be given a chance to shine . We highly urge the public to support these new faces too .

Models Magazine is a quarterly published magazine distributed throughout the whole of Malaysia nationwide , Borneo , Brunei and Singapore . Our magazine features 50 new faces each issue . We select the most sincere and hardworking people in our list coz attitude and character plays an important part in this industry . Models are not just about the pretty face . You have to learn , adapt , improve , and move forward together with your batch of new faces all the time or you’ll be left out .

Our first batch’s models are very loving . They are like a family . No backstab , no jealousy , no dodgy things going on . Everyone loves everyone in this family . They’re some sleeping new faces too as they’re way too busy to be in this line so lets just say they are lovely too .

We will collect a payment of RM500 for each selected entry for buying yourself a page . Acknowledge that if you want something , never expect that you can get things done your way for free and others have to do all the work and then you can take us for a ride . We are very serious in our profession . If you think RM500 is too much , we wont offer any discounts as it is already half sponsored .

The mere charge of RM500 is compulsory as we will be providing you :

1. NO PERCENTAGE will be taken off for all jobs given to you . YOU WONT BE CHARGE A CENT for the jobs that we promote you to
2. A port folio make over pictures of you . All pictures taken will be given back to you after the magazine is published and distributed .
3. We will hold 2 launches on each issue and prepare you for proper runway preview to the public ( make over will be provided )
4. You will be given one full page of own profile in the upcoming issue of Models Magazine
5. You will be given your own port folio page ( changeable all the time ) , active personal email , blog & account in our official web page www.modelsmagazine.tv
6. You will be included in all jobs , media appearance , launches , parties , shows , runways , pageants , functions , and all the publicity that we customize for you .
7. ( If there is any )You’ll get products from sponsors @ shows , runways , pageants etc.
8. You will be given special models discounts @ our sponsors’ outlets
9. You will be given free passes to selected hang out spots ( the numbers of the spots are growing )
10. ALL the jobs that we propose will be given ONLY to OUR MODELS MAGAZINE’S NEW FACES from the day that you join till no dead line coz once you’re with us , we are a family .
11. If you are active , have good personality and presentation , you will get yourself another 2 extra pages for free in the following issue .
12. If you participated in any of our events , your picture will be up in the featured event pages in the upcoming issue too
13. We will be pushing you in a period time of 3 months during your own issue by holding a lot of shows , events and runways as your platform to modeling .
14. You can enquire about jobs , pageants , events and shows from us personally if you are broke .
15. If you have hidden talents , tell us . We have wide connections to promote you further .
16. Should you have any questions , we will be there to assist you . ( no silly questions pls )
17. We will open you up to the public and let as many people nationwide knows you.
18. We are not an agency . We do not tie you up . You can do whatever you like . You are FREE ! We just promote you and give you maximum publicity .
19. We will guide you personally if you are sincere . We will be guiding you in building your own confidence , and giving you advices and tips in modeling , making things easier for you
20. We will advice you if you are keen on your lifestyle ( changeable and updated ) , your most suitable personal make up and hair styles , and fashion
21. We will inform you on any updates through : friendster , email , or text messages . You have to update us with any changes of any above .
22. Models Magazine is the first and only project that promotes the new faces . We will promote you and give you maximum publicity that no one had ever did before .
23. No matter how bad you think you look , fat or thin , short or tall , ugly or beautiful . Everything can be improved and made better . Dear all , everyone can be beautiful … who dare to judge others when they are imperfect themselves ?
24. You can meet a lot of people from different fields , sponsors , designers , event industry’s people , new friends etc through us . They are lovely people . 
25. You will have more jobs opportunities .
26. Anyhow , you have to be active , passionate , understanding , helpful , tolerable , fun and easy going to have the best out of everything . If you are not active and passionate about your dream , it is very hard for us to promote you as you take everything as nothing by doing nothing about it .
27. A home that you belong , in our hearts . You will be part of our family , we will be having trips and day-out together . We’ll be all arms open if you’d loved to join . For those who are feeling down and sad , your secrets and sorrows lies with us and ends here … we love you for who you really are , despite your past , your present or your future … just be yourself … coz you , are beautiful …

We do not accept :

1. People with bad attitude , just sits there and expect dreams would just pour on them ( go dream )
2. People who are demanding . Do not demand a V.I.P treatment . If u cant even wear a 3 inch heels , start practicing today coz no models gets V.I.P treatment for not delivering the basics .
3. People who are irresponsible . Do not be late / not turning up for the show last minute / without a notice . Be professional
4. People who doesn’t want to accept new lessons and experiences in life . You have to always learn , improve and push yourself further and become someone better coz you can do it ! ( besides us guiding and motivating you , you have to motivate yourself too )
5. People who backstabs and complains all the time . We are a family . If you don’t like being loving , understanding , and friendly please leave us alone .
6. People who expects everything from us , that they can be an international model or a superstar . Darling I have to tell you this , you either have to be very tall or very uniquely talented . We promise only maximum publicity and promotes you . Not guarantee your success . Coz your success is based on how much effort you’ll be putting in .

People who doubt us . If you think that we are trying to take advantage of you , kindly do not join us . ( There’ll always be people who wants to fail this project . It breaks our heart when we know that . So if you have any doubts on our purpose on helping the new faces , do not join us . Kindly attend our events and support the new faces . Your support means a lot to each and everyone of them . I sincerely thank You )

ps : More details about our family magazine kindly read tru my previous blog . TQ

love,

leng yein