Hurtful messages from you ...... part 24

Dear friends who always take ur time checking all my blogs n captions n details , i blessfully thank all of you ... including those who dont know me but hate me or mistaken or misunderstand my life , i thank u doublely ~

There's so many different feed back that i get from people all the time . There's few people whom i specially wanna thank here among all of the people , U know who u r coz u ppl were the one siding me protecting me n believing in me no matter what others says . U TRUST me for what i wrote , for what i say , for what it seems n for what i did . Thank you ! Thank you ! Thank You so so very much coz YOU are the one keeping me going on no matter how tough my time was n is ...

People , i have so many things on my shoulder which u tot tat im just another pretty face ( which i think so many girls without titles still look better ) with titless n a egoistic life . Do u know something ? If i were to really give my heart out n taste the fame , i would have left Malaysia so long ago . I'll do anything i can do get what i want in life , if u like to think sideways then be it ~ Coz i believe that everyone does that all the time . If u dont do ur best , why r u here now ? Doing ur worst to type n login to friendster for nothing ? Come on ~ Im not stupid ~ Dont point ur finger at others when YOU are doing the same .

Everyone have this special chance to know big bosses so do i . But the decision lies on us ourself . If i really like the light , i'll be in china or hong kong now coz i have connections there , tat's y i fly about all the time u dumb ~ I dunno why im telling u this but its stated so clearly in my caption , what i really want in the end is always a simple family of my own . How can my life be simple if i know everyone around n seen all around . Do u ever see me in club ? Do u ever see me drinking ? Yes ? NO ~! Why ? Because my life is simple , i stay home , listen to my jazz , writing my diary ( and damn , whats ur prob , cant a girl write her diary , i've been writing it for years for heaven sake , its my time , my book , my pen ~! blek ! ) ( stop laughing ) , go mamak with my beloved lou poh waiwai , meet my sister Leng Sean n her bf for dinner n lunch when she's free , that's it ~! Simple . Ok , i admit , shopping sometime but so what ? Its simple ~!

Yes , i smoke socially but i NEVER drink nor like clubbing . But does it mean that a girl who're clean who doesnt smoke n drink is good ? Ask urself , press the ques close to ur heart n do the math my dear .

Im only 21 n i have to pay a damn list of things for people . Yes , my family my dear . I never had time off for myself until now . I travel working too . U tot its so nice ah ? Flying here n there huh ? Cool ? Yes , i made it cool coz i try to make the best of it thinking it was cool but hey , think ~! Where do all the money goes ? Not 100% for myself . I can never tell u how big my burden is but let me tell u this , my life aint easy AT ALL . I've climb but i cant fall too deep coz if i fall , r u gonna do the paying for my sake ? If yes then its easy , im gona give u just 3 little accounts now n u bank in sums to it every month , sometimes few times a month . Then i'll delete my account n u'll never see my annoying or PROUD face again . Cool ? High five ~ i can rest ~ Yes ~

U'll never understand my life my dear ( yes , those who hate me ) . My friends will love me n i love them too , i'll be there for them whenever they are down when im around , sorry if i cant b there when im not in town but i'll be there again when im back . MY FRIENDS know it very well . YOU dont know it coz u were never my friend n u duwanna be my friend . ( ya , u will b thinking now that WHO WANTS TO BE FRIEND WITH ME ) Then u know what , ask urself back , who wanna be ur friend . Then stop wasting ur time reading this n carry on ur life coz im always at least few hundred kmsss far away from ur perfect life .

U think i love writing my profile this way huh ? Then i ask u what am i gonna write when im always not around ? What i like to eat what i dont who i like who i dont what colour i like ? Hey , i do friendster because i's always away n whenever ppl ask me to send them my profile i am not free or convenient n this is the only perfect way to get my picture sent to their computers my dear . I have no big brains to remember all single details so they can get my full profile from here just cut n paste , easy n fast n simple , just the way i want it . If i have free time i would have do MSN already , why didnt i ?

I prefer few sincere frens than junk up strangers whom i dont even know by their face , not to mention remembering their name for christ sake ~ I met few really nice friends tru friendster n this makes me trust people in here . Just because of few who dont understand what friends for doesnt mean that u can get ur finger into my life . Never ! Coz no matter how much u wrote , there's 100 times more sincere people writing things to me than u now remember that .

Friends who correct me in a way , i really appreciate that . Coz u taught me my life , u make my mind clear of whats wrong or right . But people who judge me , u are never right n u know why ? Even if i did something wrong n u press it on so hard , ask urself , did i offend u ? If i offend u coz u dont like looking tru my profile then just block me ~! i dont care , im not interested in clicking u either now i tell u this ~! U tot tat im so proud , then ask urself , when u r writing these to me , u wrote it sincerely or because u feel angry n dislike me . Do u know me ? Are u my friend ? Then just advise n dont judge . Coz who do u think u r to judge someone else . If u r holding ur last breath n u r 70 or 80 years old , its ok coz u have been tru n seen too much n judging me coz u want to make me a better person . But for ppl in early 20s , before judging others , ask urself , why r u sounding these things out . You know what ? Coz things doesnt go the way u want it to be , to see , to hear , to know . But hardly did u know that life always go this way . We dont always get things we like the way we want it to most of the time , or should i put it this wat - all the time .

Your life is tough , i believe it so , and bare in mind mine too . Not to say twice as your but equally , ok ? Im PROUD ? Yes , proud to settle all problems with the help of true friends around me , who're always mentally there for me all the time like YOU ... financially ? I'll do it myself dont worry , wont call u out borrowing money from you :)

So , be it this way ... have it your way ...

Love you lovely people all the time ...... Leng Yein